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Okay, class outing was today.
I felt really really awkward and out-of-place at first. I suck at social functions. At certain points in time I will stand at the corner of the group, desperately trying to fit in and make small talk/socialise. And I feel like I'm the "loser" kid that people always laugh secretly at; the uncool kid who's trying to hang out with the popular crowd.
I'm more comfortable with the usual mahjong people; I can talk/joke/be stupid and not stand out like a (loser) sore thumb.
And that's also why I'm scared when I graduate in 2 years' time I will be the loser kid that everyone secretly looks at with a mixture of pity and scorn.
I felt really really awkward and out-of-place at first. I suck at social functions. At certain points in time I will stand at the corner of the group, desperately trying to fit in and make small talk/socialise. And I feel like I'm the "loser" kid that people always laugh secretly at; the uncool kid who's trying to hang out with the popular crowd.
I'm more comfortable with the usual mahjong people; I can talk/joke/be stupid and not stand out like a (loser) sore thumb.
And that's also why I'm scared when I graduate in 2 years' time I will be the loser kid that everyone secretly looks at with a mixture of pity and scorn.