wow...am i outta shape
So yesterday was the first day of my training. Through every football season, and every basketball season, i have never been through a workout like i was last night. You know how u usually scream on the last couple of reps??? Yeah well that was me on every rep. It sounded like i was getting molested in there. If this program doesnt work then i guarantee there isnt a program on earth that does work. So my ex-girlfriend just called...u know, the one i am crazy in love with and cant be with. The one who has a new bf who gets to be with the girl i cant stop thinking about. If u dont want to hear any more bitching then i suggest u stop reading. I think that me and Lauren were actually together for only one christmas out of 4 years...how sad is that. Last year it was my fault and i regret that. The holidays suck when u dont have someone next to u. No one to enjoy the snow with. Or someone to go see the lights with. I am sooo pissed off. I hate this. I would use exclamation points but i dont really care if u know how mad i am. I go through these mood swings where i am happy and ok with everything, and then something happens and i want everything in the world to just stop. It just pisses me off how some things can make some people so happy, and destroy other people. I thought it was ok...but its not. I dont care if i sound selfish. U dont do that to someone u love and care about.