4 years
so i was sitting at my computer just thinking, and i realized that it is the day after christmas. Now to most people, the day after christmas is one of the worst days of the year. To me, it has been one of the most important and special days of the year. Today would have been 4 years for me and my ex-girl. I love her to death and a lot of the time i feel so confused. i guess it would have been nice just knowing i was with someone who i loved for 4 years. But u know what...i have to get passed this. There are times when i ask God what the purpose of all this is. Then there are other times when i thank God for doing this to me instead of someone else who couldnt handle it. I can read all the quotes i want or take all the advice people can give, and it will still hurt. What i need to do, is take advantage of the pain. Turn it into desire. Its all about controlling anger and using it as fuel. Maybe it will get me one more rep on my final set. Maybe it will get me one more inch on the field. Its the difference between DII and DIII, the difference between almost and actually getting it. Shit gets tough...that is the time, the exact moment, when u realize who u really are. Can u make it through the tough times??? or do u give up and go home. Even though this break up has hurt a lot, i have learned so much from it. I know how to be a better bf. More importantly, ive learned a lot about myself and what matters most to me. I have so many friends that have helped me with everything...if ur reading this, thank u so much. I couldnt get through this crap without u. This is getting long so i just have to say...take care of the people u love. u never know when ur gonna need them the most. Sometimes they come out of nowhere. I appreciate everything...