:Dream A Little, Dream Of Me
Title:Dream A Little, Dream Of Me
Author:bakudanhatsugen
Beta:
ruki_sama
Worning:boyxboy
Chapter:4/?
Character:Reita/Ruki, Aoi/Ruki(in Aoi's mind) mention of Aoi/Uruha
AN:I'm so glad that there are so many who are reading my story and I really want to thank you guys and to my beta who allways doese a great job.
Summary:Now, almost calm, he starts where he left off. Again with one of his arms, he raise Ruki's T-Shirt and bends his head to lick the little man's chest and tummy.
Raising the T-Shirt more,he starts twirling his tongue around the other's nipple.
Things aren’t the way they should be. Outside was dark with a very big chance of thunderstorm.
It was almost 6:54 and Ruki was still sitting on the bed confronting his own thoughts. He wasn’t really sure what to do. Will Reita come here to take him to that unknown party? Or everything was just a bad joke? And what if it was? He didn’t have anything to lose, just fake hope that he’ll create inside his head.
He lay down on his bed with a piece of paper that his left hand held tightly. That was Reita’s poem, a poem that Ruki read every single minute and started smiling sadly, thinking and talking to himself. Why would someone like Reita talk to Ruki? Why would someone like him do that without wanting something in exchange?
But stories with happy endings do exist in the real life right? Or not; his life was made for bad luck so why would the good luck will start now?
He didn’t know what to do. To get out of the bed and start getting dressed for the party or just stay there covered in his darkness.
He was telling himself that staying locked up in his room won’t do any good, but he hasn’t listened to anyone in his entire life why will he start listening to himself now?
Several minutes later he hears an annoying but familiar bell: it was the little silver door bell from downstairs. He jumps off the bed running to open his bedroom door but almost breaking it down from his anxiousness.
He started running like a cheetah down the stairs trying to calm his heart down that skipped a few beats telling it that it might be Kai. It had to be Kai. There was no way Reita could be keeping his promise.
When he finally got to the door, he started breathing slowly, calming his heart, who practically wanted to jump out of his chest telling him that there is no way Kai could be there but he ignored that sensation. He wanted to go back into his room and pretend that he wasn’t home but it was too late. The lights were on and he was already screaming to the door that he’ll be there in a minute.
He took a deep breath filling his lungs with dirty air, air full with dust and finally opened the door. Right there in front of him was non else but a tall blond boy with spiked hair, dressed in a white T-Shirt with black letters on it that were saying “I sell crack to the CIA.” He had long, cut, black jeans and a pair of black leaders boots. His eyes were wide open and staring at the small creature in front of him.
Ruki couldn’t believe his eyes. Maybe it was just a dream; maybe he will wake up kissing the pillow if he continues this dream. The taller boy started smiling widely almost bursting into laughter. Ruki threw a questioning look at him. Reita couldn’t control himself and that made Ruki angry but then he realized. He got changed carelessly and didn’t pay attention to what he was wearing.
He took a quick glance at himself and his face turned all red. He was only dressed with a white T-shirt, a pair of boxers and white socks falling off his feet. He gets inside quickly and closed the door leaving Reita outside.
Ruki was on the other side of the door with his head in his hands, wanting to kill himself because of the shame. Reita started knocking at the door. “Can I at least get inside?” He said amused. “It’s starting to rain here”.
Ruki opened the door and Reita promised that he won’t laugh anymore but what he saw in the house made him stop talking without warning. That house left him with no words. How could someone live in here? What kind of people were his parents by leaving him in a big, dirty house like this? The thing is that the house could look fascinating if someone could take care of it and he was right cause when he climbed the stairs and entered the boys room, everything was different from the rest of the house. Ruki was in the bathroom while Reita made his way to the bed, a soft white blanket with a black bed. That mixed color matched with the golden contrast of the walls, like everything was made from gold.
He sits on the bed trying to make some conversation with the one from the other room.
“So… nice house” he booked the deadly silence still thinking about how to ask him about his parents or how he got to live in such a house.
“Nice try but I hate it” he said screaming from the bathroom.
Reita saw a nice digital clock on the nightstand but when he touched it a very loud sound started. It seems that it was digital alarm clock with a radio, when someone had to wake up the radio starts by the fixed hour but the sound was incredible loud screaming “A fire of unknown origin took my baby away”
Reita could hear Ruki laughing from the bathroom while he was trying to turn that thing off.
“Do me a favor and don’t touch anything” said Ruki still laughing “You break, you pay” Finally the music stopped and Ruki got out of there dressed with a dark green blouse covered by a brown leader jacket and long, cut jeans and platform boots. His hair and make up was perfect and ready to go.
“Don’t tell me that you forgot about our date” Ruki blushes a little at hearing of those words but he again takes a serious look “It’s not a date, it’s a party”
“Fine, say as you like” But the thing is, deep inside him, he wanted to consider this a date, or maybe more. The both of them alone in that entire world but dreams are dreams and he can’t dream of it.
They got out of the house and Reita took Ruki to his motorbike” I can’t afford a car right now, and I guess it’s not a good idea to walk in this rain” But Ruki didn’t complain, he never rode a motorbike before. The idea scared him but at the same time he loved it.
They climbed on the motorbike and went to the party where only Reita knew the way. Ruki was holding Reita tightly around the waist.
“So why did you said that you didn’t like it” Ruki didn’t realized what the other was saying because of the fear. His face was hidden on the others back.
“Family issues” He hardly said. The thing is, he got a little angry. He didn’t want Reita to be like one of those people who pretended that they knew what he was going through.
“Me too” He says smiling softly, those were the exact words Ruki didn’t want to hear. People say things like that happens, or oh just like me’ words that weren’t true. “My mom is Satan”
Ruki opened his eyes full of question. ”How come?” Reita laughs shortly and starts telling his story.
“Well it was me and Uruha. A very good old friend of mine, we’ve known each other since we had diapers. He’s like a brother to me. The thing is that my mom, him, and I had to go on ship for a vacation”
“And what’s so bad about that?” asked Ruki
“It took her two weeks to realize that we were on the wrong ship” he said laughing. “What’s your bad experience with your parents?”
“They left me alone in that house since I was little, hoping I’d die” Ruki’s voice was full of hate. Reita stopped the motorbike almost hitting a car.
“People like that deserve to die” Those words made Ruki want to crush Reita into a tight hug. No one said something like that to him, taking his part like that. Most of people said things like why the hell you didn’t die.
Reita started the motor again and drove to the party. “ Want to hear something funny” but Ruki didn’t say a word. ” I still got my mom on speed dial 666” Ruki started giggling and soft words got out of his mouth unwillingly “Free to be, just you and me”
Reita heard those words and he didn’t feel as good as he thought he would. He loved to know what Ruki was thinking about but knowing that he was taking money for this wasn’t as great as he first thought.
He didn’t need money to stay with the one he loved and this lie had to stop and it will as soon as they get to the party. Reita will settle things with Kai and hopefully if everything turns out alright Ruki will find out about this. But that surely will happen somewhere deep in the future.
They got to the party. There was a very big house full with different lights and people. The music was terribly loud, they got off of the motorbike and went to the house where people were drinking, singing, dancing and kissing.
Ruki went to get something to drink while Reita was looking for Kai, if he even was there.
Everywhere there was only drunk people, people that he didn’t even know but somehow deep in the background he sees a much known figure. It was Uruha holding hands with the person Ruki hated the most.
After several minutes, he realized that he lost Ruki, so he starts searching for the boy in every room of the house till he sees him dancing in the living room surrounded by people who were yelling for more.
Ruki was drunk, really drunk. Reita got to Ruki and took him out for a deep breath of cold clean air. The minute they got out Kai made his appearance.
Reita dropped the little guy on the cold, wet grass and went straight to Kai who was looking at them from a distance. As soon as he saw Reita coming towards him, he tried to get out of there, thinking that Reita may want more money, money that he doesn’t have, or maybe more.
Reita started to run and finally he caught up to Kai but what they didn’t see or realize was that Ruki was hardly standing up about 8 feet away from them. Both of their backs were facing him so that might be a good reason for them not to see him.
Kai tried to explain that he doesn’t have money for now but the taller guy was trying to say something else. They both were talking in the same time and nothing could be understood from their talking till Reita started screaming.
“I don’t want your fucking money anymore, but I can’t give it back either!” Those words were perfectly clear to Ruki who tried to get closer just to hear a little bit clearer. ”I don’t want to do this anymore” He continued saying while Kai was looking confused at him.
Ruki didn’t understand either, what did Reita hate so much? What he didn’t want to do anymore? What money?
“I didn’t pay you to go out with Ruki just to quit now” Everything became clear to him now, why Reita was so attracted to him. What kind of friend was Kai, to do something like that?
Beautiful tears of sadness were visible on his pale cheek. Tears like crystal, beautiful without a color but still visible where the light is reflected into them, a small spark of light.
Reita and Kai turned to see the one who was almost crying behind them, the one who sighed behind them.
When they saw the boy’s crying face it felt like the soul was leaking out of the body along with the tears. The boy was breaking apart, Reita tried to reach for him but he push Reita away and ran as fast as he could in that moment.
He turns back to face Kai who was almost starting to cry. He places his hands on the others shoulders and looked him in the eyes telling him confidently “I’m in love with him”. Kai’s face lit up at hearing those words. He wanted in that moment to hit him till he starts bleeding because of what he said but didn’t have time now.
“You might find Ruki at home, that’s the only place where he could be”
Reita climbed his motorbike, turned on the engine and started driving on the streets with an incredible speed. He stood sharp while driving at any figure that might resemble with the small angel that he lost.
When he got to the mansion the lights were off and the door was locked. But sure that wasn’t a rezone for him to think that Ruki wasn’t home. He didn’t stop calling his name again and again; he knocked at the door but still nothing. He stood there in front of the door for about 3 hours and nothing. Finally, he decided to go.
Reita knew that all this happened because of him and if Ruki didn’t want to see him anymore then that should be okay. He can’t force someone to love him, even if it hurts and he can’t let go. But it was stupid right? To love someone who doesn’t love you.
He can’t live his life crying or staying angry, what kind of life is that?
What kind of life is that without Ruki? Without seeing his smile everyday only because he knew he took it away.
That isn’t the life that he wants. His world isn’t the world that he wanted to live in.
Not without Ruki, not when the boy has his heart, but it’s okay because he doesn’t want it back. Tears were slowly falling from his eyes, slightly visible on his cheeks. The speed of the bike became faster and Reita knew it. He wasn’t that kind of person who takes his life from a simple break up but in this moment he liked to feel the adrenaline, the wind crushing his face, everything.
He tried to calm himself, breathing slowly, controlling his heart beats almost like wanting to stop it and then in a moment here he was, right there in front of him was the one that he loved. He accelerates just to get closer but it felt like he was far away. He blinked for a second and the image of the one he loved wasn’t there anymore.
The motorcycle gets out of control, unbalanced and falling on the ground sliding on the street with Reita under it. Finally it stopped, everything stopped. Motorbike peaces were everywhere. Screaming and crying was the only thing that he could hear and nothing, nothing to see, there was only darkness.
For a couple of seconds he even thought that he was dead but the pain brought him back. Pain that was everywhere, pain he couldn’t even stand.
That was all he could sense.
A loud annoying noise in the background and, incredible pain that was crashing him, breaks him apart and then nothing. Emptiness and babies of pain like a big hole inside him was getting bigger and bigger, he felt like he was dying and sure it was like that.
Before putting his eyes into a deep sleep while his body was resting on the cold wet road with the motor covering him, a sweet lullaby was heard, he couldn’t recognize it because of the crowded place.
Screaming and crying and the sweet melody of a late ambulance could be his unknown lullaby that made him finally to sleep.
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Author:bakudanhatsugen
Beta:
ruki_sama
Worning:boyxboy
Chapter:4/?
Character:Reita/Ruki, Aoi/Ruki(in Aoi's mind) mention of Aoi/Uruha
AN:I'm so glad that there are so many who are reading my story and I really want to thank you guys and to my beta who allways doese a great job.
Summary:Now, almost calm, he starts where he left off. Again with one of his arms, he raise Ruki's T-Shirt and bends his head to lick the little man's chest and tummy.
Raising the T-Shirt more,he starts twirling his tongue around the other's nipple.
Things aren’t the way they should be. Outside was dark with a very big chance of thunderstorm.
It was almost 6:54 and Ruki was still sitting on the bed confronting his own thoughts. He wasn’t really sure what to do. Will Reita come here to take him to that unknown party? Or everything was just a bad joke? And what if it was? He didn’t have anything to lose, just fake hope that he’ll create inside his head.
He lay down on his bed with a piece of paper that his left hand held tightly. That was Reita’s poem, a poem that Ruki read every single minute and started smiling sadly, thinking and talking to himself. Why would someone like Reita talk to Ruki? Why would someone like him do that without wanting something in exchange?
But stories with happy endings do exist in the real life right? Or not; his life was made for bad luck so why would the good luck will start now?
He didn’t know what to do. To get out of the bed and start getting dressed for the party or just stay there covered in his darkness.
He was telling himself that staying locked up in his room won’t do any good, but he hasn’t listened to anyone in his entire life why will he start listening to himself now?
Several minutes later he hears an annoying but familiar bell: it was the little silver door bell from downstairs. He jumps off the bed running to open his bedroom door but almost breaking it down from his anxiousness.
He started running like a cheetah down the stairs trying to calm his heart down that skipped a few beats telling it that it might be Kai. It had to be Kai. There was no way Reita could be keeping his promise.
When he finally got to the door, he started breathing slowly, calming his heart, who practically wanted to jump out of his chest telling him that there is no way Kai could be there but he ignored that sensation. He wanted to go back into his room and pretend that he wasn’t home but it was too late. The lights were on and he was already screaming to the door that he’ll be there in a minute.
He took a deep breath filling his lungs with dirty air, air full with dust and finally opened the door. Right there in front of him was non else but a tall blond boy with spiked hair, dressed in a white T-Shirt with black letters on it that were saying “I sell crack to the CIA.” He had long, cut, black jeans and a pair of black leaders boots. His eyes were wide open and staring at the small creature in front of him.
Ruki couldn’t believe his eyes. Maybe it was just a dream; maybe he will wake up kissing the pillow if he continues this dream. The taller boy started smiling widely almost bursting into laughter. Ruki threw a questioning look at him. Reita couldn’t control himself and that made Ruki angry but then he realized. He got changed carelessly and didn’t pay attention to what he was wearing.
He took a quick glance at himself and his face turned all red. He was only dressed with a white T-shirt, a pair of boxers and white socks falling off his feet. He gets inside quickly and closed the door leaving Reita outside.
Ruki was on the other side of the door with his head in his hands, wanting to kill himself because of the shame. Reita started knocking at the door. “Can I at least get inside?” He said amused. “It’s starting to rain here”.
Ruki opened the door and Reita promised that he won’t laugh anymore but what he saw in the house made him stop talking without warning. That house left him with no words. How could someone live in here? What kind of people were his parents by leaving him in a big, dirty house like this? The thing is that the house could look fascinating if someone could take care of it and he was right cause when he climbed the stairs and entered the boys room, everything was different from the rest of the house. Ruki was in the bathroom while Reita made his way to the bed, a soft white blanket with a black bed. That mixed color matched with the golden contrast of the walls, like everything was made from gold.
He sits on the bed trying to make some conversation with the one from the other room.
“So… nice house” he booked the deadly silence still thinking about how to ask him about his parents or how he got to live in such a house.
“Nice try but I hate it” he said screaming from the bathroom.
Reita saw a nice digital clock on the nightstand but when he touched it a very loud sound started. It seems that it was digital alarm clock with a radio, when someone had to wake up the radio starts by the fixed hour but the sound was incredible loud screaming “A fire of unknown origin took my baby away”
Reita could hear Ruki laughing from the bathroom while he was trying to turn that thing off.
“Do me a favor and don’t touch anything” said Ruki still laughing “You break, you pay” Finally the music stopped and Ruki got out of there dressed with a dark green blouse covered by a brown leader jacket and long, cut jeans and platform boots. His hair and make up was perfect and ready to go.
“Don’t tell me that you forgot about our date” Ruki blushes a little at hearing of those words but he again takes a serious look “It’s not a date, it’s a party”
“Fine, say as you like” But the thing is, deep inside him, he wanted to consider this a date, or maybe more. The both of them alone in that entire world but dreams are dreams and he can’t dream of it.
They got out of the house and Reita took Ruki to his motorbike” I can’t afford a car right now, and I guess it’s not a good idea to walk in this rain” But Ruki didn’t complain, he never rode a motorbike before. The idea scared him but at the same time he loved it.
They climbed on the motorbike and went to the party where only Reita knew the way. Ruki was holding Reita tightly around the waist.
“So why did you said that you didn’t like it” Ruki didn’t realized what the other was saying because of the fear. His face was hidden on the others back.
“Family issues” He hardly said. The thing is, he got a little angry. He didn’t want Reita to be like one of those people who pretended that they knew what he was going through.
“Me too” He says smiling softly, those were the exact words Ruki didn’t want to hear. People say things like that happens, or oh just like me’ words that weren’t true. “My mom is Satan”
Ruki opened his eyes full of question. ”How come?” Reita laughs shortly and starts telling his story.
“Well it was me and Uruha. A very good old friend of mine, we’ve known each other since we had diapers. He’s like a brother to me. The thing is that my mom, him, and I had to go on ship for a vacation”
“And what’s so bad about that?” asked Ruki
“It took her two weeks to realize that we were on the wrong ship” he said laughing. “What’s your bad experience with your parents?”
“They left me alone in that house since I was little, hoping I’d die” Ruki’s voice was full of hate. Reita stopped the motorbike almost hitting a car.
“People like that deserve to die” Those words made Ruki want to crush Reita into a tight hug. No one said something like that to him, taking his part like that. Most of people said things like why the hell you didn’t die.
Reita started the motor again and drove to the party. “ Want to hear something funny” but Ruki didn’t say a word. ” I still got my mom on speed dial 666” Ruki started giggling and soft words got out of his mouth unwillingly “Free to be, just you and me”
Reita heard those words and he didn’t feel as good as he thought he would. He loved to know what Ruki was thinking about but knowing that he was taking money for this wasn’t as great as he first thought.
He didn’t need money to stay with the one he loved and this lie had to stop and it will as soon as they get to the party. Reita will settle things with Kai and hopefully if everything turns out alright Ruki will find out about this. But that surely will happen somewhere deep in the future.
They got to the party. There was a very big house full with different lights and people. The music was terribly loud, they got off of the motorbike and went to the house where people were drinking, singing, dancing and kissing.
Ruki went to get something to drink while Reita was looking for Kai, if he even was there.
Everywhere there was only drunk people, people that he didn’t even know but somehow deep in the background he sees a much known figure. It was Uruha holding hands with the person Ruki hated the most.
After several minutes, he realized that he lost Ruki, so he starts searching for the boy in every room of the house till he sees him dancing in the living room surrounded by people who were yelling for more.
Ruki was drunk, really drunk. Reita got to Ruki and took him out for a deep breath of cold clean air. The minute they got out Kai made his appearance.
Reita dropped the little guy on the cold, wet grass and went straight to Kai who was looking at them from a distance. As soon as he saw Reita coming towards him, he tried to get out of there, thinking that Reita may want more money, money that he doesn’t have, or maybe more.
Reita started to run and finally he caught up to Kai but what they didn’t see or realize was that Ruki was hardly standing up about 8 feet away from them. Both of their backs were facing him so that might be a good reason for them not to see him.
Kai tried to explain that he doesn’t have money for now but the taller guy was trying to say something else. They both were talking in the same time and nothing could be understood from their talking till Reita started screaming.
“I don’t want your fucking money anymore, but I can’t give it back either!” Those words were perfectly clear to Ruki who tried to get closer just to hear a little bit clearer. ”I don’t want to do this anymore” He continued saying while Kai was looking confused at him.
Ruki didn’t understand either, what did Reita hate so much? What he didn’t want to do anymore? What money?
“I didn’t pay you to go out with Ruki just to quit now” Everything became clear to him now, why Reita was so attracted to him. What kind of friend was Kai, to do something like that?
Beautiful tears of sadness were visible on his pale cheek. Tears like crystal, beautiful without a color but still visible where the light is reflected into them, a small spark of light.
Reita and Kai turned to see the one who was almost crying behind them, the one who sighed behind them.
When they saw the boy’s crying face it felt like the soul was leaking out of the body along with the tears. The boy was breaking apart, Reita tried to reach for him but he push Reita away and ran as fast as he could in that moment.
He turns back to face Kai who was almost starting to cry. He places his hands on the others shoulders and looked him in the eyes telling him confidently “I’m in love with him”. Kai’s face lit up at hearing those words. He wanted in that moment to hit him till he starts bleeding because of what he said but didn’t have time now.
“You might find Ruki at home, that’s the only place where he could be”
Reita climbed his motorbike, turned on the engine and started driving on the streets with an incredible speed. He stood sharp while driving at any figure that might resemble with the small angel that he lost.
When he got to the mansion the lights were off and the door was locked. But sure that wasn’t a rezone for him to think that Ruki wasn’t home. He didn’t stop calling his name again and again; he knocked at the door but still nothing. He stood there in front of the door for about 3 hours and nothing. Finally, he decided to go.
Reita knew that all this happened because of him and if Ruki didn’t want to see him anymore then that should be okay. He can’t force someone to love him, even if it hurts and he can’t let go. But it was stupid right? To love someone who doesn’t love you.
He can’t live his life crying or staying angry, what kind of life is that?
What kind of life is that without Ruki? Without seeing his smile everyday only because he knew he took it away.
That isn’t the life that he wants. His world isn’t the world that he wanted to live in.
Not without Ruki, not when the boy has his heart, but it’s okay because he doesn’t want it back. Tears were slowly falling from his eyes, slightly visible on his cheeks. The speed of the bike became faster and Reita knew it. He wasn’t that kind of person who takes his life from a simple break up but in this moment he liked to feel the adrenaline, the wind crushing his face, everything.
He tried to calm himself, breathing slowly, controlling his heart beats almost like wanting to stop it and then in a moment here he was, right there in front of him was the one that he loved. He accelerates just to get closer but it felt like he was far away. He blinked for a second and the image of the one he loved wasn’t there anymore.
The motorcycle gets out of control, unbalanced and falling on the ground sliding on the street with Reita under it. Finally it stopped, everything stopped. Motorbike peaces were everywhere. Screaming and crying was the only thing that he could hear and nothing, nothing to see, there was only darkness.
For a couple of seconds he even thought that he was dead but the pain brought him back. Pain that was everywhere, pain he couldn’t even stand.
That was all he could sense.
A loud annoying noise in the background and, incredible pain that was crashing him, breaks him apart and then nothing. Emptiness and babies of pain like a big hole inside him was getting bigger and bigger, he felt like he was dying and sure it was like that.
Before putting his eyes into a deep sleep while his body was resting on the cold wet road with the motor covering him, a sweet lullaby was heard, he couldn’t recognize it because of the crowded place.
Screaming and crying and the sweet melody of a late ambulance could be his unknown lullaby that made him finally to sleep.
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