Changes

[bakslashr]

Well, it started out like any normal day. We were scheduled to have a company meeting later in the day. My manager had left maybe two weeks prior to pursue a new career with a different company. Otherwise things had been going seemingly smoothly. Shortly before the company meeting the CEO came up to me and wanted me to come with him to the office. Which was an "oh crap" moment, since I rarely try to have any interaction with others beyond my laptop at work, and it regularly works out that way, so something was wrong. My instincts were soon realized. They told me that the company was having revenue problems and needed to let me go, and that it was in no way related to my performance. I listened to them, and looked at how uncomfortable they were (seriously, do you need or want 3 people telling you they are letting you go at once?). I was worried that since they were a small company that they could have easily dug up a reason to fire me instead of laying me off, which would have been many times worse. I felt sort of mixed about it, I still feel mixed about it. I think that I have said multiple times that I am really going to try and make this the last job I am ever in with an employer, and I would really like to full fill keeping that. For me, being "let go" is so much easier than walking out on them, this way I feel as if I am not letting them down and frees me from any guilt.

I think it is time to attempt something different.