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The 11th came and went. Thanks to those of you in the know that called to check on me. I handled it better than I thought I would, of course given the insanity of the night before I suppose my mind was elsewhere. I haven't really slept since then though. It's like, if I go to sleep, I feel there's something horrible waiting for me. That doesn't really make sense, even to me. The best way to describe it is that dread you get when you're going to take an important test that you did not study for over material you know next to nothing about. That sort of thing. No it doesn't make sense but I really stopped trying to understand my line of thinking awhile ago.
I'm almost done moving back home. Actually, this should be my last night in the apartment. Oddly enough, I'm not phased by it. Change seems to be affecting me less and less anymore to the point where, if I lost a limb I'd probably barely pay it a second thought. I'm just doing my own things my own way right now, I like it.
Granted, I have noticed myself drifting from people lately. But really I think it's what I need. I just what to do what makes me happy and right now what makes me happy is solitude. Course, I suppose that comes with this time of year. I'm excited about prospects though and look forward to the things coming my way. Already there've been gains in certain areas that I've been lacking. Equilibrium is slowly descending upon me, a very welcoming feeling. And when that person comes along to turn my world upside down I'll be sure to plant my feet as I embrace the chaos.
God bless guys.
I'm almost done moving back home. Actually, this should be my last night in the apartment. Oddly enough, I'm not phased by it. Change seems to be affecting me less and less anymore to the point where, if I lost a limb I'd probably barely pay it a second thought. I'm just doing my own things my own way right now, I like it.
Granted, I have noticed myself drifting from people lately. But really I think it's what I need. I just what to do what makes me happy and right now what makes me happy is solitude. Course, I suppose that comes with this time of year. I'm excited about prospects though and look forward to the things coming my way. Already there've been gains in certain areas that I've been lacking. Equilibrium is slowly descending upon me, a very welcoming feeling. And when that person comes along to turn my world upside down I'll be sure to plant my feet as I embrace the chaos.
God bless guys.