college crap
my official start date is july 10. I know you all think i'm nuts, but i haven't been in school since last May, so I have enjoyed my time off. Although everybody else is gonna be workin/chillen I'm taking night classes. They only last till 9:30 so I'll have the rest of the night anyway, besides I'm gonna be working more hours soon anyway. My contract with transitional assistance is up in a few weeks, so I can start getting paid through Wayside and get paid more. My weekends will still be free... kinda. I got the Friday night meeting in Norwood, and the sunday night meeting in Milford, but if that was an issue there's an NA meeting in Concord on sunday nights too.
On another note, Jamieson's got me as his personal training gunea pig, so I've been working out a lot lately, which also takes up some time, but I'm seeing results so it's cool. I'm not always motivated, but afterwards I'm always happy. I'm glad I won't have too much time though because then there's less time to try to kill=less $ spent. I need to save because I wanna get outta here. I'm not having any problems w/Nancy right now, but I really would feel better about myself if I wasn't in a foster home at this age. I'm also wicked excited to live w/Jamieson, but mainly because it'll be such a landmark of my resentment towards my parents like, "look where I am now mother fuckers, I'm only 19 and I'm better off than you!"...not that I would tell them where I was, just my own silent poetic justice because they can't take that away from me. I'm sure someday they'll come crawling to my doorstep for help, but I'm not near enough ready to forgive them for anything. It's a goal for someday though; I only make myself sicker by holding resentments. Forgiveness doesn't mean to excuse, it only means to give up resentment; claim requital; to get rid of the hate inside me
On another note, Jamieson's got me as his personal training gunea pig, so I've been working out a lot lately, which also takes up some time, but I'm seeing results so it's cool. I'm not always motivated, but afterwards I'm always happy. I'm glad I won't have too much time though because then there's less time to try to kill=less $ spent. I need to save because I wanna get outta here. I'm not having any problems w/Nancy right now, but I really would feel better about myself if I wasn't in a foster home at this age. I'm also wicked excited to live w/Jamieson, but mainly because it'll be such a landmark of my resentment towards my parents like, "look where I am now mother fuckers, I'm only 19 and I'm better off than you!"...not that I would tell them where I was, just my own silent poetic justice because they can't take that away from me. I'm sure someday they'll come crawling to my doorstep for help, but I'm not near enough ready to forgive them for anything. It's a goal for someday though; I only make myself sicker by holding resentments. Forgiveness doesn't mean to excuse, it only means to give up resentment; claim requital; to get rid of the hate inside me