she fades away

[bakerpd]

um today i didnt go to school cause i wasnt feeling too good, cause of the convo i got last nite from a friend. i couldnt really get any sleep last nite either. as everyone now knows amanda did break up with me, she said she didnt wanna get hurt again. god i apologized to her so many times about the past, but i guess she doesnt accept it. oh well. i made my choice and i'm sticking with it. i'm not gonna have nothing to do with her not even being friends.cause i dont wanna get close and hurt her again. i think it is the best and wizes choice i made. i mean if you think about it she is too young. all my friends say she is too young and most likely doesnt know what she wants in a guy. plus her parents dont like me. she thinks i hate her, i dont hate her, i cant hate anyone. i just get mad or upset at them. we talked today about everything i guess i can trust her, but i'm a little shaky on that. we wont be together again. i mean i say i trust her, but i dont really know if i do. but you know what, i dont really care what she dose anymore, i'm moving on. andrew reynolds said, "What happen is in the past is gone and what's going to happen tomorrow...I don't know...so I live in the moment." so thats what i'm gonna do, amanda is the past, so no more with her. i'm gonna live life one day at a time, not in the past. no more of that. ahh well i felt better around 10ish this morning. so i didnt do much today besides watch movies and listen to some cds. um went outside to play a little ball by myself. YAY and i seen bubba. haha it was great, we just waved to each other. that was kool. um made some pretty kool shoots, haha actually i really suck at basketball. um 2morrow fear factory's new cd is released, and you know who's gonna buy it......me haha. fear factory is awesome you should listen to them. oh yeah and 2morrow is my parents anver. 4/20, i hope they have a good time. well 2mororw i gotta work 5-9. that should go pretty good. well have a good one to all. oh yeah did i tell you ricky is coming by this weekend. haha gonna have a blast. yep
leave a comment on this one, tell me if i made the right choice.

how do i feel, what do i say, in the end it all goes away