Staring blankly at nothing, wishing it was something...
I don't know if that subject makes sense, but it does to me. It's been a while since i last updated so i figured i'd get to it since i'm sitting here with absolutly nothing to do but be bored.
Work has been going really well and i've been making some really good money over these past couple of weeks. It would help if we had some kind of comercials or a radio ad or something. For now, Houlihan's fan base is slowly growing by word of mouth or by having people who used to go to the one on Westshore. That doesn't bug me though because i'm hoping to stick around for the long run and not get fired or quit. I wish that i could say that the rest of my life is going as well as my job is.
School has been going very badly for me. I really need to learn how to study better. I had to drop my first criminology class because it was supposed to be an online class, but they wanted me to run on a schedule. I thought the whole point of an online class was to do it at your own pace so i got rid of that class. Then in my American National Government class i was forced again to drop the class after my first two exams (out of four total for the semester) were low C grades. The class was just too early in the morning for me to be any bit attentive in that class. That put me down to two classes. Unfortunatly although i love my Japanese class, i had to drop that also. Since training and the first week of work took up so much of my time i had to miss a lot of class and that in turn made me fall very behind. I really do like that class and going to continue to study on my own until next semester when i'll take it again. I am at least very determined to learn japanese before i graduate. This leaves me with a grand total of one three credit class left. I couldn't be more miserable. I hate the feeling like i'm giving up on everything. I am genuinely wondering if college is for me. More likely is the fact that i have been going to school for three years now and still have yet to take more then a handful of courses that i like. I just want to be so many things when i grow up that it's hard to take this pointless and stupid classes that really won't help in the real world. Nothing i've learned so far has done anything to teach me about a career when i get out. I won't be able to solve a crime (if i become a CSI) when i get out. I won't know how to process evidence. So what good is a degree in criminology if i have to go back to school again to learn a trade after i'm out?
I am going to have a party for christine on her birthday, although the location has yet to be picked. I want it to be at my parents house that way we could invite more people. Christine wants it to be at my apartment which means less people. It's ultimatly up to her, so we'll see what happens.
Since my parents haven't been able to get a car they still have yet to give mine back. So i've spent the last couple of days trying to get a car. I have a little bit of money that i can use for a down payment, but i've recently discoved that thanks again to my parents, my credit is horrible. So bad that i doubt i could get any kind of financing on a used bicycle. The worst part is that i'm completly serious about my credit. I have tried with two different people as a co-signer for a car at Autoway and other places, and no one is willing to give me a chance, even though i would have enough money to make the car payments. Worst of all is that now i have to give my parents money because they will not be able to pay rent. |Once again there goes the money with which i could get a car. I know many people will tell me not to give it to them and all that kind of stuff, but i cannot do that to my family. Once again i am fucked over because my family can't support themselves. It would all be ok if my brothers and sister worked, but instead they just sit at home and mooch off of my parents and that's where all their money goes. I'm just so damn miserable right now. It sucks to have to have to spend all my money every time i get any because i know if i try to save it then my parents will need it. My life needs to seriously get better soon, or i really won't feel like doing anything but locking myself in my room and not talking to anyone.
Work has been going really well and i've been making some really good money over these past couple of weeks. It would help if we had some kind of comercials or a radio ad or something. For now, Houlihan's fan base is slowly growing by word of mouth or by having people who used to go to the one on Westshore. That doesn't bug me though because i'm hoping to stick around for the long run and not get fired or quit. I wish that i could say that the rest of my life is going as well as my job is.
School has been going very badly for me. I really need to learn how to study better. I had to drop my first criminology class because it was supposed to be an online class, but they wanted me to run on a schedule. I thought the whole point of an online class was to do it at your own pace so i got rid of that class. Then in my American National Government class i was forced again to drop the class after my first two exams (out of four total for the semester) were low C grades. The class was just too early in the morning for me to be any bit attentive in that class. That put me down to two classes. Unfortunatly although i love my Japanese class, i had to drop that also. Since training and the first week of work took up so much of my time i had to miss a lot of class and that in turn made me fall very behind. I really do like that class and going to continue to study on my own until next semester when i'll take it again. I am at least very determined to learn japanese before i graduate. This leaves me with a grand total of one three credit class left. I couldn't be more miserable. I hate the feeling like i'm giving up on everything. I am genuinely wondering if college is for me. More likely is the fact that i have been going to school for three years now and still have yet to take more then a handful of courses that i like. I just want to be so many things when i grow up that it's hard to take this pointless and stupid classes that really won't help in the real world. Nothing i've learned so far has done anything to teach me about a career when i get out. I won't be able to solve a crime (if i become a CSI) when i get out. I won't know how to process evidence. So what good is a degree in criminology if i have to go back to school again to learn a trade after i'm out?
I am going to have a party for christine on her birthday, although the location has yet to be picked. I want it to be at my parents house that way we could invite more people. Christine wants it to be at my apartment which means less people. It's ultimatly up to her, so we'll see what happens.
Since my parents haven't been able to get a car they still have yet to give mine back. So i've spent the last couple of days trying to get a car. I have a little bit of money that i can use for a down payment, but i've recently discoved that thanks again to my parents, my credit is horrible. So bad that i doubt i could get any kind of financing on a used bicycle. The worst part is that i'm completly serious about my credit. I have tried with two different people as a co-signer for a car at Autoway and other places, and no one is willing to give me a chance, even though i would have enough money to make the car payments. Worst of all is that now i have to give my parents money because they will not be able to pay rent. |Once again there goes the money with which i could get a car. I know many people will tell me not to give it to them and all that kind of stuff, but i cannot do that to my family. Once again i am fucked over because my family can't support themselves. It would all be ok if my brothers and sister worked, but instead they just sit at home and mooch off of my parents and that's where all their money goes. I'm just so damn miserable right now. It sucks to have to have to spend all my money every time i get any because i know if i try to save it then my parents will need it. My life needs to seriously get better soon, or i really won't feel like doing anything but locking myself in my room and not talking to anyone.