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I'm so naive.
I really need to find someone that I can safely not be naive about. Someone to care about that loves me as much, wants to be with me as much. Is dedicated as much. Someone that wants to be with me.
I guess I deserve this, but that doesn't mean I'm going to put up and sufffer with it. This is all so pointless. I know what I have to do, but I need the courage...I need the security. I know I'm just going to spiral into such a deep pure self hatred that I might die harder than I did sophomore year.
I just sent the most tortured email ever. But I feel a billion times better about myself.
For all of you that are still standing by me, you don't have any idea how much I appreciate it. I'm sorry I can't show it better, but just please have faith in me. That's all I ask.
<3<3<3
I really need to find someone that I can safely not be naive about. Someone to care about that loves me as much, wants to be with me as much. Is dedicated as much. Someone that wants to be with me.
I guess I deserve this, but that doesn't mean I'm going to put up and sufffer with it. This is all so pointless. I know what I have to do, but I need the courage...I need the security. I know I'm just going to spiral into such a deep pure self hatred that I might die harder than I did sophomore year.
I just sent the most tortured email ever. But I feel a billion times better about myself.
For all of you that are still standing by me, you don't have any idea how much I appreciate it. I'm sorry I can't show it better, but just please have faith in me. That's all I ask.
<3<3<3