Hoorah.
I saw this somewhere.
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every time i get a good guy, i scare him away, because i only know abuse in relationships. the truth is, what scares me more than the abusive guys are the ones that seem so sweet and too wonderful to be real. i never know if they're going to hurt me or not. and now i have a great boyfriend. i can't shake the feeling that i'm going to lose him, but i also can't open my mouth and tell him i love him. i can't tell him about all the bad things in my past. i can't open myself up completely to him because i'm terrified he doesn't love me the way i love him. but if he loved me like i love him, i'd probably run away anyway.
the man that came before him ripped my spirit to shreds. my current boyfriend is picking up the pieces whether he knows it or not. before that one... he took everything away from me. my sense of self, my body, the life i thought i had, my light, everything. and it goes back to my second boyfriend, this abusive crap. i really don't know what to do or who to tell or what to say even. so i say nothing at all. but i want to tell him everything, and i want him to know me. no one else ever really has. but i don't want him to turn away from me and reject me. i love him. if i say nothing, i'll lose him, but if i talk, i could lose him too.
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