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Blaahh... I dont even know why Im writing.
I need a new group of friends. My friends now arent even friends... well, I used to think they were but now I'm starting to see otherwise.
I miss the people I used to hang out with. Like Samantha, Blake, Gaby, Kelly, Stephen... I always had/have so much fun with them.
But now it feels like hanging out with them again on a regular basis isnt even possible either because I'm a fucking loser.
I found "better" people to hang out with... and blew them off.
Oh well. Stephs a loser.
Now I'm sitting here on the computer... listening to my mother fight with Michael on the phone and I'm crying.. and I dont even know why.
I saw my aunt today.. she picked me up at Mobil and brought me to my moms, asking questions like.. "Why dont you go live in a halfway house? Maybe they can help you go to school and save money." or "When are you going to learn that hopping from friends house to friends house and working at places like dunkin donuts and mcdonalds isnt gonna get you anywhere?" or "Id offer you to stay with me, but living with me entails rules and regulations and I just know you arent going to want to hear any of that." or "Why dont you take your fucking mother to court like you shouldve a long fucking time ago?"
I don't know. I don't know. I DONT KNOW.
I am so tired.
I have to work 9pm to 6am one day next week. Overnights are gonna suck. Oh well.
Im gonna eat.. considering I just woke up like 2 hours ago and havent eaten all day.
I need a new group of friends. My friends now arent even friends... well, I used to think they were but now I'm starting to see otherwise.
I miss the people I used to hang out with. Like Samantha, Blake, Gaby, Kelly, Stephen... I always had/have so much fun with them.
But now it feels like hanging out with them again on a regular basis isnt even possible either because I'm a fucking loser.
I found "better" people to hang out with... and blew them off.
Oh well. Stephs a loser.
Now I'm sitting here on the computer... listening to my mother fight with Michael on the phone and I'm crying.. and I dont even know why.
I saw my aunt today.. she picked me up at Mobil and brought me to my moms, asking questions like.. "Why dont you go live in a halfway house? Maybe they can help you go to school and save money." or "When are you going to learn that hopping from friends house to friends house and working at places like dunkin donuts and mcdonalds isnt gonna get you anywhere?" or "Id offer you to stay with me, but living with me entails rules and regulations and I just know you arent going to want to hear any of that." or "Why dont you take your fucking mother to court like you shouldve a long fucking time ago?"
I don't know. I don't know. I DONT KNOW.
I am so tired.
I have to work 9pm to 6am one day next week. Overnights are gonna suck. Oh well.
Im gonna eat.. considering I just woke up like 2 hours ago and havent eaten all day.