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Its almost 4pm, and I just decided that I'm not going to write my paper that is due at 5. I have two papes due this week, and I figure I only have enough BS for one, so I'll save it for the one thats due thursday. SO, here I am wasting time.
I thought today might be hell, but it seems OK so far.
My teaching the 3 yrs old was extermely mediocre (oxymoron), but they had fun even if they didn't learn anything. I really like those little shits.
My lesson went well, becuase I kissed ass the whole time. I got my teacher to talk about herself and all her accomplishments, so between that and getting her to gossip about some other people, I only had to sing one song for real. HA! I'm a genius. But, I have another make-up lesson tomorrow, and I'm gonna have to think of other distractors if I don't wanna sing.
The auditions for the solos were low-key, so I wasn't stressed. BUT, I'm super frustrated:
They hired in a professional bass. And I'm auditioning against HIM and three GRADUATE students for these solos that will go on a RECORDING next spring!!! Basically, I logically have ZERO chance. But, at the beginning of the year, my professor said he wanted me to do those solos. So, now I understand the fuss. I've waited around all year for this, going to all the random (badly timed) rehearsals, and missing out on PAYING GIGS for this man... and now I may not even get payoff.
I sound like one selfish sonofabitch, but lets face it, if I don't get any chances at solos in school and I'm stuck singing in a choir, then I might as well join a choir that pays me outside of school. Do things I can put on a resume, you know?
Speaking of this frustrating lil choir, our concert is tonight:
English Madrigals
UNT Collegium Singers and orchestra
8pm Recital Hall in the Music Bldg. FREE
I've invited tons of people to it, cuz the crowds are always small, and I don't think anyone is coming.
I invited Chris, who has no clue (I need to learn to flirt). He's not coming. I invited the married gay man, Greg, who has long talks with me about how I'm going to hell because I'm gay. I don't think he's coming either, but I'd like him too, because I'd like to go to coffee with SOMEONE after the concert... and I know he'd bring up the gays are sinners convo. Thats great coffee chat.
Standing in front of an orchestra, leading them has got to be one of the best feelings in the world. I can't imagine it even comparing with skydiving or anything like that. Its a thrill. Its like sheer power... people will get so loud, the volume is amazing itself, and you are the one drawing it out of them. I wish everyone could feel that rush, or at least understand it so I didn't feel like a nerdsquad. Its really too bad when I get up to conduct my baton shakes like I have the palsy. I swear its just because theres electricity when people are syncronized like that. Its ridiculous.
I wanna have a christmas party.
I thought today might be hell, but it seems OK so far.
My teaching the 3 yrs old was extermely mediocre (oxymoron), but they had fun even if they didn't learn anything. I really like those little shits.
My lesson went well, becuase I kissed ass the whole time. I got my teacher to talk about herself and all her accomplishments, so between that and getting her to gossip about some other people, I only had to sing one song for real. HA! I'm a genius. But, I have another make-up lesson tomorrow, and I'm gonna have to think of other distractors if I don't wanna sing.
The auditions for the solos were low-key, so I wasn't stressed. BUT, I'm super frustrated:
They hired in a professional bass. And I'm auditioning against HIM and three GRADUATE students for these solos that will go on a RECORDING next spring!!! Basically, I logically have ZERO chance. But, at the beginning of the year, my professor said he wanted me to do those solos. So, now I understand the fuss. I've waited around all year for this, going to all the random (badly timed) rehearsals, and missing out on PAYING GIGS for this man... and now I may not even get payoff.
I sound like one selfish sonofabitch, but lets face it, if I don't get any chances at solos in school and I'm stuck singing in a choir, then I might as well join a choir that pays me outside of school. Do things I can put on a resume, you know?
Speaking of this frustrating lil choir, our concert is tonight:
English Madrigals
UNT Collegium Singers and orchestra
8pm Recital Hall in the Music Bldg. FREE
I've invited tons of people to it, cuz the crowds are always small, and I don't think anyone is coming.
I invited Chris, who has no clue (I need to learn to flirt). He's not coming. I invited the married gay man, Greg, who has long talks with me about how I'm going to hell because I'm gay. I don't think he's coming either, but I'd like him too, because I'd like to go to coffee with SOMEONE after the concert... and I know he'd bring up the gays are sinners convo. Thats great coffee chat.
Standing in front of an orchestra, leading them has got to be one of the best feelings in the world. I can't imagine it even comparing with skydiving or anything like that. Its a thrill. Its like sheer power... people will get so loud, the volume is amazing itself, and you are the one drawing it out of them. I wish everyone could feel that rush, or at least understand it so I didn't feel like a nerdsquad. Its really too bad when I get up to conduct my baton shakes like I have the palsy. I swear its just because theres electricity when people are syncronized like that. Its ridiculous.
I wanna have a christmas party.