[Fic] Back in my arms
Title: Back in my arms
Pairing: AKame
Genre: angst all the way XD, romance
Rating: PG-13
Word count: 1110
Summary: Is it break-up? Or just... (it's short, so...XD)
Disclaimer: I own their hearts.... no, wait... it's the other way around *sigh*
A/N: I know I haven't posted an X'mas fix, but... I really had no ideas *sigh* Anyway, I hope you enjoy this (even if it's angst *shot*)
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It's dark inside the room I'm in, lying on the bed we used to share. I didn't bother turning on the lights as I know only memories of us would fill my vision and mind. I get up and move towards the window, pulling the curtains away slowly. Everything I have worked for, everything we have worked for... I can't enjoy them by myself.
I look outside the window at the cars passing by below and think that maybe you're inside one of them, returning home, to me. I suddenly pull the curtains back and turn on the small lamp on the nightstand before my feet take me to our dresser, where I enter and look at your remaining clothes. I keep waiting for you to come back and take the rest of your clothes. But it's been almost two weeks now and some of your things are still here, which makes me wonder... will you return?
I pick out one of your favorite shirts and as I bring it close, I can still feel your smell.
“I want you back.” I mutter as I grip it tighter. Soon I feel my knees giving in and I fall on them, sudden tears invading my eyes. I can't even remember the number of times I did this since you left and I can't bring myself to take them out of there. I cover my face with the shirt, trying to stop my hiccups. Not that anyone would hear them.
I keep repeating your name over and over again, hoping a miracle to happen and you to come back. But it seems that my hopes are in vain.
I've been sitting here for more and than an hour now, I guess, happy memories just flowing inside my mind, making my tears fall with more sadness.
Suddenly I hear some noises and I try to stop crying and just listen: it's the sound of the door being opened. I tell myself that it might be Pi, seeing that we gave him a spare key, but I just sit here, since I'm in no mood to see him. I hear footsteps coming near our bedroom, but I still don't mind them as I grip your shirt tightly to my chest. The door to the room opens and the main light is turned on in the next second.
“Jin, are you here?”
I freeze. That wasn't Pi's voice I just heard. I still say nothing as the footsteps are approaching the dresser.
“Jin...” I hear your soft voice saying my name so beautifully that it sounds like music to my ears. “What are you doing?” I wipe my tears away and whisper that I am picking up some clothes that fell when I was searching for my black shirt. But you don't seem to believe me as you come closer and crouch behind me. I see your hand trying to take the shirt I'm holding, but I'm not letting it go.
“Jin...”
“Can-can I keep this? I-I mean...”
You say nothing but sit down in such a way that you can see my face from profile. But I still can't look at you.
“I'm sorry I hurt you, Jin.” You say out of the blue, making me shoot my head up and look at you with a surprised expression. It's the first time I hear you say those words.
“What?” I whisper and feel your hand caressing mine softly and I glance at it before looking at you again. We had fights before, but you never apologized when it was your fault, so I always did it for you. But as a 'sorry' present you used to give me the best blowjob ever or let me do you any way I wanted. This means your words are really from the heart said, right?
“I know I never said I was sorry whenever we fought. And I know that I was the biggest pain in the ass most of the time, but-”
“I love you, Kazuya.” I say, looking anywhere but at you. However, seeing you aren't saying anything, I look at you and notice your surprised and almost shocked expression.
“I... It's...”
“Yes, it's the first time you hear me say these words. But I do mean them, Kazu... I love you for a long time, almost since we met, but I was a bit afraid to tell you this. And now that you left... it's too late, I know.” I look away and want to get up, when I feel you pulling me back down. I'm puzzled at the small smile that's spreading on your lips.
“You're such an idiot.” you lean in and kiss me tenderly. However, in the next second I can't help myself but to pull you as close as I can and pour all my feelings in that kiss.
“I love you, my idiot.” You whisper and smile as our foreheads meet and we close our eyes, losing ourselves in each other's warmth. “And I've been waiting for those words for a while now.”
“So that's why you left? You wanted me to say those words?” I ask you and you nod in response. “You should've asked me this and you know I would've answered you.”
“Yes, but I wanted it to come from your own will. Honestly, I could never figure out if you really love me or not.”
“Does this mean... that you're not actually leaving me?” I look at you with hope and pull you in my arms the second I see you nod. It feels so good to have you in my arms again, you have no idea.
“Where have you been staying all this time? At your parents' house?”
“No, at Pi's. You know they don't know about us. I also had a good talk with him.”
“And...?”
“I think they're more than ready to know we're not just very good friends.” Your smile makes me feel so happy that I smile back at you before placing a soft kiss on your forehead.
“Thank you, Kazuya.”
I really hope you know what I'm thanking you for. If not, I'll tell you again: thank you for always being there for me; thank you for always putting up with my bakaness and stubbornness. Thank you especially for loving me and being my everything.
You just smile at me as an answer and in that second I realize how madly in love I am with you.
Thank you, Kazuya. I love you so much.
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Pairing: AKame
Genre: angst all the way XD, romance
Rating: PG-13
Word count: 1110
Summary: Is it break-up? Or just... (it's short, so...XD)
Disclaimer: I own their hearts.... no, wait... it's the other way around *sigh*
A/N: I know I haven't posted an X'mas fix, but... I really had no ideas *sigh* Anyway, I hope you enjoy this (even if it's angst *shot*)
~*~*~
It's dark inside the room I'm in, lying on the bed we used to share. I didn't bother turning on the lights as I know only memories of us would fill my vision and mind. I get up and move towards the window, pulling the curtains away slowly. Everything I have worked for, everything we have worked for... I can't enjoy them by myself.
I look outside the window at the cars passing by below and think that maybe you're inside one of them, returning home, to me. I suddenly pull the curtains back and turn on the small lamp on the nightstand before my feet take me to our dresser, where I enter and look at your remaining clothes. I keep waiting for you to come back and take the rest of your clothes. But it's been almost two weeks now and some of your things are still here, which makes me wonder... will you return?
I pick out one of your favorite shirts and as I bring it close, I can still feel your smell.
“I want you back.” I mutter as I grip it tighter. Soon I feel my knees giving in and I fall on them, sudden tears invading my eyes. I can't even remember the number of times I did this since you left and I can't bring myself to take them out of there. I cover my face with the shirt, trying to stop my hiccups. Not that anyone would hear them.
I keep repeating your name over and over again, hoping a miracle to happen and you to come back. But it seems that my hopes are in vain.
I've been sitting here for more and than an hour now, I guess, happy memories just flowing inside my mind, making my tears fall with more sadness.
Suddenly I hear some noises and I try to stop crying and just listen: it's the sound of the door being opened. I tell myself that it might be Pi, seeing that we gave him a spare key, but I just sit here, since I'm in no mood to see him. I hear footsteps coming near our bedroom, but I still don't mind them as I grip your shirt tightly to my chest. The door to the room opens and the main light is turned on in the next second.
“Jin, are you here?”
I freeze. That wasn't Pi's voice I just heard. I still say nothing as the footsteps are approaching the dresser.
“Jin...” I hear your soft voice saying my name so beautifully that it sounds like music to my ears. “What are you doing?” I wipe my tears away and whisper that I am picking up some clothes that fell when I was searching for my black shirt. But you don't seem to believe me as you come closer and crouch behind me. I see your hand trying to take the shirt I'm holding, but I'm not letting it go.
“Jin...”
“Can-can I keep this? I-I mean...”
You say nothing but sit down in such a way that you can see my face from profile. But I still can't look at you.
“I'm sorry I hurt you, Jin.” You say out of the blue, making me shoot my head up and look at you with a surprised expression. It's the first time I hear you say those words.
“What?” I whisper and feel your hand caressing mine softly and I glance at it before looking at you again. We had fights before, but you never apologized when it was your fault, so I always did it for you. But as a 'sorry' present you used to give me the best blowjob ever or let me do you any way I wanted. This means your words are really from the heart said, right?
“I know I never said I was sorry whenever we fought. And I know that I was the biggest pain in the ass most of the time, but-”
“I love you, Kazuya.” I say, looking anywhere but at you. However, seeing you aren't saying anything, I look at you and notice your surprised and almost shocked expression.
“I... It's...”
“Yes, it's the first time you hear me say these words. But I do mean them, Kazu... I love you for a long time, almost since we met, but I was a bit afraid to tell you this. And now that you left... it's too late, I know.” I look away and want to get up, when I feel you pulling me back down. I'm puzzled at the small smile that's spreading on your lips.
“You're such an idiot.” you lean in and kiss me tenderly. However, in the next second I can't help myself but to pull you as close as I can and pour all my feelings in that kiss.
“I love you, my idiot.” You whisper and smile as our foreheads meet and we close our eyes, losing ourselves in each other's warmth. “And I've been waiting for those words for a while now.”
“So that's why you left? You wanted me to say those words?” I ask you and you nod in response. “You should've asked me this and you know I would've answered you.”
“Yes, but I wanted it to come from your own will. Honestly, I could never figure out if you really love me or not.”
“Does this mean... that you're not actually leaving me?” I look at you with hope and pull you in my arms the second I see you nod. It feels so good to have you in my arms again, you have no idea.
“Where have you been staying all this time? At your parents' house?”
“No, at Pi's. You know they don't know about us. I also had a good talk with him.”
“And...?”
“I think they're more than ready to know we're not just very good friends.” Your smile makes me feel so happy that I smile back at you before placing a soft kiss on your forehead.
“Thank you, Kazuya.”
I really hope you know what I'm thanking you for. If not, I'll tell you again: thank you for always being there for me; thank you for always putting up with my bakaness and stubbornness. Thank you especially for loving me and being my everything.
You just smile at me as an answer and in that second I realize how madly in love I am with you.
Thank you, Kazuya. I love you so much.
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