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I am half here, half there.
My apartment is emptying out (courtesy of Craig's List) and as strange as it may be, the more stuff I get rid of, the more time passes, I grow calmer.
I realized a few things today. I like being in panic mode. It's safe. If I have something to freak out about, I am fixated enough that I do not dwell on all the things that could be going wrong or which will go wrong.
If life is anything, it's messy and chaotic. Worrying about it doesn't seem to make one iota of difference, perhaps my time is better spent living life instead of thinking about it.
I'm officially 29...
It's scary and terrible.
But I like it.
My apartment is emptying out (courtesy of Craig's List) and as strange as it may be, the more stuff I get rid of, the more time passes, I grow calmer.
I realized a few things today. I like being in panic mode. It's safe. If I have something to freak out about, I am fixated enough that I do not dwell on all the things that could be going wrong or which will go wrong.
If life is anything, it's messy and chaotic. Worrying about it doesn't seem to make one iota of difference, perhaps my time is better spent living life instead of thinking about it.
I'm officially 29...
It's scary and terrible.
But I like it.