Failure is never fun. Growing old really sucks. disoriented thoughts to pass the time.
I'm actually alert and awake tonite at work. Must be the mountaindew/energy drink I had tonite. I usually never drink coffee/tea/energy drinks.. just straight water. Just too much sugar/caffiene/teeth staining properties in it. But it does help me do my job better... HRM *raises two hands balancing the two thoughts*. I think i'll stick with water. I just didn't have the proper willpower today.
My little niece is only 14 months old, and just babysitting the kid for a hour or two is a pain in the ass. Kids who can't talk, and just kinda run around pulling things down from tables and constantly wanting to run around and wanting attention really seems to suck the life out of me. Makes me feel SO OLD. But shes not all bad, i'm probably exaggerating some parts.. for the most part shes a pretty quiet baby, and will actually hand you things randomly. She smiles and giggles so easily, which makes my job watching her alot easier/fun. I mean shes the first kid from the 2nd generation to be born in the U.S... thats right, my parents/uncles/aunts, were a first generation.. coming here to the states within the past 16 years or so. Hopefully my generation of cousins/siblings can maintain the family get togethers + holidays when it comes to it being our turn.. when we get older and have kids *shudders*.
No matter how positive and silver lining I try to be for those times when annoying crappy things happen, they are still annoying and crappy for at least a good while. Its a trait that I admire in people, the people who are able to just instantly able to convert those thoughts right upon or within minutes of the situation occurring. Of course.. it could just be a case of the Lake Wobegon effect.. whenever I judge those people as having a special ability when they are only slightly above average or average in that type of activity.
GAR. Anyways, I need to learn to shut my fat mouth when I think something good is bout to happen, jobwise. I think i'm about 0-6 , with the corporations winning for not hiring me in dreaded game of the job interview / survivor copycat type situation. That just makes me look like a big goober when things don't go the way I want. Took me about 24 hrs to get over it, but I attribute that to having really bad long-term memories, it helps that it happens semi regularly.
Damnit, i'm 24 atm, and it feels like time is just moving too freaking fast. Which led me to do some things I kind of regret lately, but who knows how long anyone has left in their lives. Feels like just yesterday I was waking up in a dorm room 4 yrs ago, enjoying the welcoming rays of sunshine filtering through my dorm window blinds. Full of ambition and ready to rock. As much as I despised the tedious busywork in school, I really miss the social aspect of it, the freedom of it haha.
40k a yr + 40k a yr = 80k = 130-150k house easy to handle the mortgage.
Well this got disoriented.
yay. 20 minutes till i get to go home. Mission accomplished.
My little niece is only 14 months old, and just babysitting the kid for a hour or two is a pain in the ass. Kids who can't talk, and just kinda run around pulling things down from tables and constantly wanting to run around and wanting attention really seems to suck the life out of me. Makes me feel SO OLD. But shes not all bad, i'm probably exaggerating some parts.. for the most part shes a pretty quiet baby, and will actually hand you things randomly. She smiles and giggles so easily, which makes my job watching her alot easier/fun. I mean shes the first kid from the 2nd generation to be born in the U.S... thats right, my parents/uncles/aunts, were a first generation.. coming here to the states within the past 16 years or so. Hopefully my generation of cousins/siblings can maintain the family get togethers + holidays when it comes to it being our turn.. when we get older and have kids *shudders*.
No matter how positive and silver lining I try to be for those times when annoying crappy things happen, they are still annoying and crappy for at least a good while. Its a trait that I admire in people, the people who are able to just instantly able to convert those thoughts right upon or within minutes of the situation occurring. Of course.. it could just be a case of the Lake Wobegon effect.. whenever I judge those people as having a special ability when they are only slightly above average or average in that type of activity.
GAR. Anyways, I need to learn to shut my fat mouth when I think something good is bout to happen, jobwise. I think i'm about 0-6 , with the corporations winning for not hiring me in dreaded game of the job interview / survivor copycat type situation. That just makes me look like a big goober when things don't go the way I want. Took me about 24 hrs to get over it, but I attribute that to having really bad long-term memories, it helps that it happens semi regularly.
Damnit, i'm 24 atm, and it feels like time is just moving too freaking fast. Which led me to do some things I kind of regret lately, but who knows how long anyone has left in their lives. Feels like just yesterday I was waking up in a dorm room 4 yrs ago, enjoying the welcoming rays of sunshine filtering through my dorm window blinds. Full of ambition and ready to rock. As much as I despised the tedious busywork in school, I really miss the social aspect of it, the freedom of it haha.
40k a yr + 40k a yr = 80k = 130-150k house easy to handle the mortgage.
Well this got disoriented.
yay. 20 minutes till i get to go home. Mission accomplished.