whatever comes to mind
whatever comes to mind. thats what this is all about. whatever can come to mind to me while I sit here and type. i miss the feeling of the keys under my fingers as i type like a mad man.
I used to do this all the time. I would let my feelings just get out, let it be feel to something other then another thoguht in my head. But I haven't be able to do this. Not because of time, I have lots of that. It has more of the will to do this.
I've lost my will for alot of things. To sing, To play, to write. I miss it. I have jno clue how or why I lost it, but I've tried to get it back but I just seems all too hard to me. I had a muse for awhile, and I wrote but even now that's gone. I can't even read without feling bored. Is there something wrong with me?
AM I BROKEN?
I feel different, like I'm not all here. but if I'm not all here where the hell am I? I'm sitting here typing am I not? but just because there is a part of me doing this does not mean something is missing.
Am I missing?
Maybe that's why I feel like this, I'm missing something, someone...me? But why would I be lost? where did I get lost? and If I'm lost how do I find myself? can I ever find myself again?
I want to dance. Spining until I can't take it anymore. I want to laugh again so much until my sides hurt. I want that feeling that nothing could go wrong, even when all I can see is darkness.
I used to say nothing would Change my would, but it has. I used to love change, something new something great. But what would I give to have soemthing of my childhood back? something that made me who I am. What if I could Change myself so much that I became that girl again? would it be any better? would I feel any better?
I feel alone to much and wonder why? i have firends, I have people to talk to, but I still feel alone. I don't mind it time to time, I feel free....I AM MYSELF. but I still feel different
I have no clue who I am or where I'm gonig
I used to do this all the time. I would let my feelings just get out, let it be feel to something other then another thoguht in my head. But I haven't be able to do this. Not because of time, I have lots of that. It has more of the will to do this.
I've lost my will for alot of things. To sing, To play, to write. I miss it. I have jno clue how or why I lost it, but I've tried to get it back but I just seems all too hard to me. I had a muse for awhile, and I wrote but even now that's gone. I can't even read without feling bored. Is there something wrong with me?
AM I BROKEN?
I feel different, like I'm not all here. but if I'm not all here where the hell am I? I'm sitting here typing am I not? but just because there is a part of me doing this does not mean something is missing.
Am I missing?
Maybe that's why I feel like this, I'm missing something, someone...me? But why would I be lost? where did I get lost? and If I'm lost how do I find myself? can I ever find myself again?
I want to dance. Spining until I can't take it anymore. I want to laugh again so much until my sides hurt. I want that feeling that nothing could go wrong, even when all I can see is darkness.
I used to say nothing would Change my would, but it has. I used to love change, something new something great. But what would I give to have soemthing of my childhood back? something that made me who I am. What if I could Change myself so much that I became that girl again? would it be any better? would I feel any better?
I feel alone to much and wonder why? i have firends, I have people to talk to, but I still feel alone. I don't mind it time to time, I feel free....I AM MYSELF. but I still feel different
I have no clue who I am or where I'm gonig