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I feel like I go through periods in my life where I sleep well, feel good, exercise work out, conquer the things I need to do with ease (pretty much), I don't get that hungry and life is good. Then I go through whatever the hell I'm going through now, for no reason really...there are a few things bothering me but nothing I feel is essential to causing this funk I'm in. It's like I'm dragging myself out of bed, I don't sleep well, I force myself to work out and instead of feeling rejuvinated I want to take a nap. My appetite has been rather obnoxious lately and I just feel like an empty dead lifeless soul...I just don' feel good, for no reason. I'm really stressed about the 2 finals I have in my classes and the Praxis I...which I haven't had time to study for since I've been so busy with classes. Always stress. My uncle has been in the ICU with gallstone(sp) problems and has had to have surgery. I've been worried about him too. Even though I never see him he is still my uncle...Mom has been really worried about him and she herself hasn't been in the best of health lately. So many worries, they never cease. I know it could be worse and I need to shut the hell up and be thankful things are the way they are but I can't. To make matters worse I'm in love with someone who isn't officially committed to me though all of that is still shakey, he is newly freed so I have to be patient I guess...I can't help feeling like a sucker. Sometimes I think it would be better if I just disapeared since I've always had such a hard time dealing with the hurtful things in life. People say I'm stronger than I think, I guess I'll just have to keep believing that and keep on, keepin' on...