Exhausted
It's shaping up to be a pretty difficult week for me, and I'm just so very very tired right now. I haven't been sleeping well for the past few weeks, with very strange dreams and waking up every hour or so being the regular pace of things. I seem to have this recurring theme of walking into a very strong wind and not being able to get anywhere. Eventually I'm down on my hands and knees trying to crawl to my destination, but to no real sucess.
To add to this my mom pulled a muscle in her lower back on Sunday and is in a lot of pain right now. We have some anti-inflamitories for her to take as well as some T3's to kill the pain, but she's still having a lot of trouble. Since my dad is in Edmonton I've taken on the responsibility of being her nurse. Needless to say it's a difficult thing for me to do. I really have no idea what I can or can't do to help her, but I'm trying my best. It's pretty difficult to see my mother in so much pain and I'm doing all I can to keep her from seeing that. Yesterday I had to call an ambulence to take her to the hospital because the pain was so bad, after being there for 4 hours the doctors sent her home basically saying there was nothing they could do for her. I would have felt a lot better if they had just given her a room and pumped her full of something stronger to ease the pain. Even if it was just for a few days, but they're so overcrowded right now that wasn't even an option.
My brother isn't being much help in all of this, but he's pretty freaked out by the whole thing. He keeps leaving the house to avoid dealing with it. Everytime I have him watch over mom I can see how much it hurts him to do so, but there are a lot of errands I need to run. It's difficult since I can't drive our car (it's a standard and I've only learned an automatic), so I'm bussing or cabbing around town to get bills paid and things organized for my mom. After calling one of her friends to help get her home from the hospital last night I crashed for about three hours I was so tired. Fortunately she was doing better at that point and was even able to walk around the house a bit so I didn't need to pay as close attention to her. Even with that much sleep so late in the day I got about 9 hours last night and I still feel like I could have more right now.
The pain seems to be worse for her when she wakes up in the morning, probably because the muscles have stiffened overnight, so I've been woken up by her crying out in pain for the last couple of mornings. For some reason my brother is able to sleep right through it and not even notice. I just hope she's better in the next little while, I really just wish I could take all that pain away.
On the plus side of things I've got a job at one of the grocery stores in town, but I'm still looking for a second one. We had an inventory sale from the stock my dad has leftover from the store and made about $3000 over the weekend. Even with that much sold there are still about 900-1000 games and a ton of merchandise left over. We were selling them at $10 a game.
Well, that's enough of that. I should really get back upstairs to check on her.
To add to this my mom pulled a muscle in her lower back on Sunday and is in a lot of pain right now. We have some anti-inflamitories for her to take as well as some T3's to kill the pain, but she's still having a lot of trouble. Since my dad is in Edmonton I've taken on the responsibility of being her nurse. Needless to say it's a difficult thing for me to do. I really have no idea what I can or can't do to help her, but I'm trying my best. It's pretty difficult to see my mother in so much pain and I'm doing all I can to keep her from seeing that. Yesterday I had to call an ambulence to take her to the hospital because the pain was so bad, after being there for 4 hours the doctors sent her home basically saying there was nothing they could do for her. I would have felt a lot better if they had just given her a room and pumped her full of something stronger to ease the pain. Even if it was just for a few days, but they're so overcrowded right now that wasn't even an option.
My brother isn't being much help in all of this, but he's pretty freaked out by the whole thing. He keeps leaving the house to avoid dealing with it. Everytime I have him watch over mom I can see how much it hurts him to do so, but there are a lot of errands I need to run. It's difficult since I can't drive our car (it's a standard and I've only learned an automatic), so I'm bussing or cabbing around town to get bills paid and things organized for my mom. After calling one of her friends to help get her home from the hospital last night I crashed for about three hours I was so tired. Fortunately she was doing better at that point and was even able to walk around the house a bit so I didn't need to pay as close attention to her. Even with that much sleep so late in the day I got about 9 hours last night and I still feel like I could have more right now.
The pain seems to be worse for her when she wakes up in the morning, probably because the muscles have stiffened overnight, so I've been woken up by her crying out in pain for the last couple of mornings. For some reason my brother is able to sleep right through it and not even notice. I just hope she's better in the next little while, I really just wish I could take all that pain away.
On the plus side of things I've got a job at one of the grocery stores in town, but I'm still looking for a second one. We had an inventory sale from the stock my dad has leftover from the store and made about $3000 over the weekend. Even with that much sold there are still about 900-1000 games and a ton of merchandise left over. We were selling them at $10 a game.
Well, that's enough of that. I should really get back upstairs to check on her.