*Two things are crossing Alice's mind: That whoever is at the door needs an Unforgivable, and that if they wake Neville, she may give them one.
*Rolling slowly up at Frank's voice, Alice manages to shuffle out of bed and down to the door.
But when she opens it, it's as though she's asleep again. She's had this dream before, many times. Only Frank isn't in bed upstairs, and the two men don't tell her it's Gideon and Fabian, and the dream always ends when she has to shut the door.
Now it's shut and she's numb. For a moment everything is gone, and she will never remember how she got back to their bedroom. Her next memory will always be wiping off her face and shaking Frank awake.*
*Looking back, these will stand out as the last moments when things were right in Frank's life for a long, long time. Before he opens his eyes, before he sees Alice's expression and understands without asking that someone has died, he rolls over and wraps an arm around one of her legs to press a sleepy kiss to her thigh.
It's only seconds, though. Because then he looks up at her, and it's possible he's never been more awake in his life. Dragging himself bolt upright, Frank stares at Alice for a long moment, trying to get up the courage to say the part that has to - always - comes next. If the Ministry sent people to the door at six in the morning, then this is a personal loss and not a professional one, and it's the most frightened Frank's been in a long, long time. His throat feels dry, shallow.*
*For a second everything reels violently out of kilter as he sits there staring up at Alice. It's all he can do, is sit, and stare, because what she just said is at once how he somehow knew things would one day go, and the thing in the shadows of his thoughts that he never let himself chase down.
And then before it can pull into focus, everything takes a hard left, and Frank's face goes from shock to shut down in the space of a heartbeat. Slipping past Alice, he's on his feet and tracking down his trousers, the lines of his body hard with tension as he shakes his head.*
*There is barely time to recognize the change. Now there's no grief in the room, except Alice's, a feeling she thought she would never experience again - not with Frank.*
Frank?
*But as he goes for his clothes, Alice jumps up. That change wasn't the sudden absence of grief but the abrupt feeling of danger. *
*Trousers, then socks - he doesn't bother with a belt, and the t-shirt he slept in is good enough - and then he's rooting around under the bed half-upside down. Alice's question barely registers.*
*Alice tries to block under the bed, therefore they are under the bed. Frank straightens and mechanically, too logically simply goes around to the other side of it and crouches down there to try and fish them out. He just lets her keep saying his name - doesn't matter, really, it's just background noise, until it grates on a nerve that's just been shot to hell already, and his head snaps up over the edge of the bed. He's got his shoes.*
*There's no point arguing, it's just going to waste time. Frank doesn't answer, sitting on Alice's side of the bed with his back to her as he puts on his shoes, as he stands and looks around for his wand.*
*And it's his voice and face that make Alice's hand open. She doesn't mean to, she certainly doesn't want to, but now the change is so real and so stark that she has to give in.*
*A muscle in his jaw twitches at that last word, but he doesn't react past that, he can't. He's got to see first before he'll believe it's even true, and words like that don't belong until he's got proof of the impossible. Rounding the bed again, he takes his wand and goes outside without another word, past the safety of the wards. It's a fine morning, flawless blue sky and the front garden a riot of color, but Frank sees none of it as he turns on the spot and vanishes, appearing an instant later in the corridor outside the flat.*
*This is not how John Dawlish ever wants to start his day. Bad enough to be called in at a time when he's usually slouched over a bar, but for this...
The fraternity in the office means the world to Dawlish, he's unapologetically stated it in several (mostly offensive) ways before. To see two of his brothers go down, even if they were pussies, is a real blow.
When Frank arrives, it's no shock. And Dawlish holds their front door open without so much as a word of warning, only a look of haggard commiseration.*
*That look is warning enough, and confirmation enough, but Frank still has to see. He owes them that. He owes them that and so much more than he can ever begin to make up for, but this, at least, he can do, even if it breaks him to do it.
Stowing his wand in his jacket pocket, Frank steps into the flat. It's at once intimately familiar (how many nights had he slept on that couch before he'd married Alice?) and sickeningly wrong, even out of sight of any blood or bodies. There's a coldness to it, now, a sense that a light's been snuffed out. It's a feeling he knows too well from crime scenes, that ineffable knowing that a building is no longer a home, but merely a place where things and belongings and objects are, that used to mean something to someone. It's a mausoleum now. He knows, a step inside the door. He could stop now, go home and cry and let Alice hold him, and part of him wants to, knows it would be safer for his state of mind and kinder to his wellbeing. He knows it. But the part that knows is caged in on all sides by
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*Rolling slowly up at Frank's voice, Alice manages to shuffle out of bed and down to the door.
But when she opens it, it's as though she's asleep again. She's had this dream before, many times. Only Frank isn't in bed upstairs, and the two men don't tell her it's Gideon and Fabian, and the dream always ends when she has to shut the door.
Now it's shut and she's numb. For a moment everything is gone, and she will never remember how she got back to their bedroom. Her next memory will always be wiping off her face and shaking Frank awake.*
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It's only seconds, though. Because then he looks up at her, and it's possible he's never been more awake in his life. Dragging himself bolt upright, Frank stares at Alice for a long moment, trying to get up the courage to say the part that has to - always - comes next. If the Ministry sent people to the door at six in the morning, then this is a personal loss and not a professional one, and it's the most frightened Frank's been in a long, long time. His throat feels dry, shallow.*
- Who?
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Gideon and Fabian.
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And then before it can pull into focus, everything takes a hard left, and Frank's face goes from shock to shut down in the space of a heartbeat. Slipping past Alice, he's on his feet and tracking down his trousers, the lines of his body hard with tension as he shakes his head.*
No.
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Frank?
*But as he goes for his clothes, Alice jumps up. That change wasn't the sudden absence of grief but the abrupt feeling of danger. *
Frank, stop. What are you doing?
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Where are my shoes?
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Frank, Where are you going? Frank?
*She keeps saying his name over and over, as if it belonged to her now.*
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The flat, I've gotta go to the flat.
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Frank, no.
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You can't do this.
Please.
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*It's not a command, not really, just a flat statement of what he wants, but the hollowness in his face and voice is worse anyway.*
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Frank...don't. They're gone.
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The fraternity in the office means the world to Dawlish, he's unapologetically stated it in several (mostly offensive) ways before. To see two of his brothers go down, even if they were pussies, is a real blow.
When Frank arrives, it's no shock. And Dawlish holds their front door open without so much as a word of warning, only a look of haggard commiseration.*
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Stowing his wand in his jacket pocket, Frank steps into the flat. It's at once intimately familiar (how many nights had he slept on that couch before he'd married Alice?) and sickeningly wrong, even out of sight of any blood or bodies. There's a coldness to it, now, a sense that a light's been snuffed out. It's a feeling he knows too well from crime scenes, that ineffable knowing that a building is no longer a home, but merely a place where things and belongings and objects are, that used to mean something to someone. It's a mausoleum now. He knows, a step inside the door. He could stop now, go home and cry and let Alice hold him, and part of him wants to, knows it would be safer for his state of mind and kinder to his wellbeing. He knows it. But the part that knows is caged in on all sides by ( ... )
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