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Jul 31, 2005 17:27

Ladies. Gents.

Dad bitches too much about chores.

Wow... Chris came over last night with Misti after work... Gregory was already at my house, and we had been talking about the last 7 years (As long as we've known each other). It's really interesting to look back at all the roads not taken. I'm thankful for mine.

But Yes, Chris came over last night... You guys are going to laugh at this, I know it... I don't know if any of you remember, but I've had a few problems with Chris going to talk to me and calling me Misti. Well... It happened again last night. She was right in the room too, but no one heard it but me. It pisses me off when that happens. I mean, I'm pretty sure there's nothing going on between them because I don't think they would do that to me... But I just don't understand why it keeps happening. My mother keeps trying to help him by telling me that he was with her for 3 years and it's just a name that rolls off his tongue. I'm sorry mom, but that just doesn't help. He keeps promising it wont happen again, but last night I told him that he couldn't promise me that anymore. I think I scared him a bit because he started talkin' and sayin' that he didn't want to lose me.. Spilling his guts... Whatnot.. And I believe him, I KNOW how much that boy loves me... And I know how much I love him.. But why does it happen? I've never HAD this problem before. He was thinkin' about it... And he knows that if the situation were reversed he would be angry... But I know he wouldn't just be angry, he's be infuriated. Like me! I left the room after a while and went into the kitchen to implode. He followed. That was where he started telling me how he feels for me. I asked him how much he loved me, and then I started to cry. Am I refusing to see something? Am I trying within myself to protect him? To protect her? I don't know. I love them both and I'd like to believe that they love me too.... Though I do have a record with betrayal.

He told me that I didn't have to come home with him if I didn't want to, and that he would understand. I told him that I would go wherever he told me to go.. So he took me home with him and proceeded to try to get me to cuddle with him. I cuddled. I was too sad to lay by myself. I really love that boy.. Why does he keep doing this to me? I wanna hit him. I don't usually WANT to hit people.... But if he does it again he's getting a swift smack to the face.

Is everyone out to get me? Or is this just coincinence? I need a hug.

(MORAL)

Calling your significant other by your ex. significant other's name... WILL PISS THEM OFF

Bailey
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