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i haven't written anything in a loooong time. just one of those things, i guess. too much to catch up on, so i'll just ignore that whole gaping expanse of time and focus on the present. it is exactly one week until i leave for emory. it's hit me now. not all at once, though, it's come gradually. when i see commercials for movies that open after i'll be gone. i think how i can't go see them with the friends i want to see them with. and then i think how long 3 months is. that's how long i'll be gone. and even then i'll only be back for 4 days. i can't say i'm too worried about missing my house and my parents. because honestly, as much as i love them, i need some space. and i know they'll be there for me and love me for as long as they're alive. but i am very worried about missing my friends. i love my friends. and i guess i'm used to everyone splitting up like we did in middle school to high school. but i didnt keep in touch with a lot of them and they still lived in the same state. though i guess we were a lot younger then. today i called the emory dance department (i finally got through). they must think i'm nuts, i left a phone message, called a million times, and sent an e-mail. oh well. it gave me hope, though, to talk to them. i got what classes i want to take sorted out. and the director asked me my history, etc. and she said, "so you're on point?" and i said "yes" and she followed with "so triple pirrhouettes, etc?" and i said "umm...on good days!" that gave me hope, because she recommended ballet 3 which isnt the highest and she asked about triple pirrhouettes so i think the dance department will be a lot better that i feared it would be. which is excellent news. my biggest fear is that i will love the school and hate the dance department. haha sometimes i have to remind myself to breathe. i've felt very grown up lately...first unsupervised trip paid for entirely by my own funds, a checking account, an office job, appointments to make and things to do...oh well. i guess that's it. we'll see how long it is till the next entry...