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strange old photos. more here.
this sleep schedule is strange.
falling asleep at 6am and waking up in the early afternoon.
i am doing better though.
things dont feel quite real.
like a thick bubble. or like floating.
myself but not myself.
like fiction. pretend. make believe.
which somehow works for me.
letting my thoughts stray off on its own is dangerous sometimes.
it ends up stuck in a peculiar dark place. and spirals down. on repeat.
and so,
its much better to find a way control it. and stick with it.
seems like its working for now.
i sigh less. giggle more.
we'll see where this goes...