alone on a saturday night.

[bahree]

and im sad and lonely and just a little bit drunk and nostalgic. im longing for times past. im missing people and experiences that seem to have blindsided me out of nowhere this random night that bears no significance in my life. im just thinking and thinking and throwing memories and people around in my mind wondering where this is all coming from. i miss lights, gin and tonics, cigarettes, history, stories, laughs, kisses in dark corners, hip hop, punch, california, tension, memories, comfort, contentment, text messages, random phone calls, uncertainty in a good way, hope, lust, possibility, skin, beautiful people, private jokes, quiet sighs, linked pinky fingers, sweat, the not knowing that it was all so fleeting...

i miss so many things that i cant get back. and i dont know what to do or how to get back to that place...cuz honestly its all gone and all thats stretching in front of me is the newness and uncertainty of it all that i dont really want any part of.