sometimes...
i wish i could just turn off my head and my thoughts. i wish i was into drugs or something so i could have a way to just cut myself off from the constant record that seems to be playing in my head. but alas, im not and so i just tune it out as best i can on a daily basis until its just there and i cant get away from it anymore. sounds a bit morbid but sometimes i just feel suffocated by the shit that runs through my head. i only wish i had an outlet, i wish i could take control and just be that girl i know i will never be but everyone tells me i am already. i just dont fucking see it! i need to try to sleep...