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[bahamut_zero_x]

I don't know about the direction of certain things, of certain people. There are those who bring too much personal issues into their decisions. I am not the one who wants to change things. Why should I really care? I didn't come to college to concern myself with other people's problems or to listen to people complaining about what's going on in other people's lives. And not only this, there are those who are so clouded in their mind and judgment that really prevent them from thinking before they act or speak. There are those who hold things in such high regard, yet do so little so support. It is these that must reconsider their actual reason for being a part of an organization, reconsider why they are in school, reconsider their lives as they lead it to uneventful downfall. It's such a shame that those who do uphold ideals, who still have morals, are the exception, rather than the rule. Had I known what I do now, would I have still considered making the decisions I have? Hindsight is always 20/20. A good friend of mine once referred to me as being stoic - indifferent, free from passion, unmoved by joy or grief, and submissive without complaint to unavoidable necessity.  I like the sound of that. Hahahaha.

This upcoming week is going to be a pain in the ass. Orchestration test tomorrow, conducting project as well as H.S. Methods binder due on Wednesday, performance in a senior recital Wednesday night, orchestration project on Thursday, elections Thursday night, juries on Friday. Other than that, I'm sure that I am forgetting something. I am looking forward to the end of this semester and the beginning of summer session. At least then my focus isn't spread so thinly as it has been, and I can avert much attention to practicing, especially drumset. And no, I won't be spending all my time playing video games.