they said i was too posh, and that i was a tart. but, what the fuck do they know.
as the older i get the more worrisome i find myself. the realization that you going to die, and after the live you thought you affected will go on without a second glance.
"thats horrible." my grandmother would say in response. understanding losing a father is very different from losing a husband or lover. being alone, a place were most people dont like to go.
morbid
hopelessness
i will die before reaching my thirties. fuck a drug overdose, fuck a car accident, fuck geting shot trying to save and other person. i am to selfish for all that nonsense.
maybe jumping off a building. without warning. not like in the movies, but i am not a superstar.
i have noticed, and i despise the fact that life in all its splendor is a series of good and bad if not horrible moments and they occur always in this order:
{age 20} bad-good-good-good-good-horrible-bad-good-bad-bad-bad-good-horrible-horrible-good-horrible-bad-horrible-bad {death}
so yeah i need to get a head start on death, people i knew are beating me to the swing set. but death for no reason is murder. i got to find a reason.
"thats horrible." my grandmother would say in response. understanding losing a father is very different from losing a husband or lover. being alone, a place were most people dont like to go.
morbid
hopelessness
i will die before reaching my thirties. fuck a drug overdose, fuck a car accident, fuck geting shot trying to save and other person. i am to selfish for all that nonsense.
maybe jumping off a building. without warning. not like in the movies, but i am not a superstar.
i have noticed, and i despise the fact that life in all its splendor is a series of good and bad if not horrible moments and they occur always in this order:
{age 20} bad-good-good-good-good-horrible-bad-good-bad-bad-bad-good-horrible-horrible-good-horrible-bad-horrible-bad {death}
so yeah i need to get a head start on death, people i knew are beating me to the swing set. but death for no reason is murder. i got to find a reason.