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Who can judge us? Are we our own best critics? Or worst? Why would you spend so much time with people? Why can't you understand things sometimes? Why can't I enter someone else's world? Not everyone understands everything. What would happen if I stuck to the same patterns? Why is it that we love to lie to ourselves? Why can't I finish what I start? I feel so stupid. I have no one to talk to. No one to understand me. I'm sinking. I'm tired of this. I don't want to be stuck in my own maze. I crave freedom to break free from stupidity. All we know is right there in our brain. When did I get so confused? How do I do what I do? Why is it that I got stuck? Why is it that everything makes sense? Why am I so free? She can't even write a proper essay. I need peace. I need quiet and I need... something, i don't know what. But someone somewhere does understand me, and it has become so easy to forget that... i forgot... it has become so easy to ... i don't know... it has become so easy to be able to cry. So easy to ignore those that try to bring you good. People that try to teach you. I want to learn, I crave ....
not to see my brother's face... the stupidity on it. thinking why there was so much distance. or is that the way it is? I don't remember how it felt back then. What kind of a sister was I? We get stupider when we don't have ... I'm love starved... We get stupider when we don't have a guide... This is why people become religious. They have something to believe in and something to hold on to. People with no direction are lost. What happens when you have nothing to lead you. People have no morals, they roam around like animals. Like blind mice. Education is freedom. i wonder if i will find a place that i belong to before i die. and i wonder if i could die if i wanted to die. if i just said that i wanted to. we were all so the same at some point. i'm love starved.
not to see my brother's face... the stupidity on it. thinking why there was so much distance. or is that the way it is? I don't remember how it felt back then. What kind of a sister was I? We get stupider when we don't have ... I'm love starved... We get stupider when we don't have a guide... This is why people become religious. They have something to believe in and something to hold on to. People with no direction are lost. What happens when you have nothing to lead you. People have no morals, they roam around like animals. Like blind mice. Education is freedom. i wonder if i will find a place that i belong to before i die. and i wonder if i could die if i wanted to die. if i just said that i wanted to. we were all so the same at some point. i'm love starved.