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Hi,
Didn't sleep last night, but I did get an email from one of the JAG up north that said the search wasn't legal - don't know if it's worth much or not. Everyone went to church so it is pretty quiet here. Everytime I look at someone I figure they know and when they start laughing at some inside joke I assume it's me they are laughing at. I know it's not, but can't help the way I feel. I have been left out of the "gang" that used to go to lunch and eat alone (maybe it's part of the punishment). Everyone expects me to go around like nothing happened and keep doing my job, all the while it is very likely my military just took a dump after 16 years of good service. Half of my understands and accepts the distance they place around me - the other half feels that I have been here supporting them for 9 months and deserve a little back even if it is during my mistake. Maybe my friends stuck around and the ones that left weren't really friends anyway. Not that I expected to take everyone home when I left, I just expected a little help through troubled times. I have listened and tried to give advice to each during thier times of need (the stories I could tell).
If you believe in Karma I guess this payback for lots of bad stuff in life that I did. I am here and the family business is going down hill (it has been for a while it's just worse as I can't help), my exwife has been emailing asking for help as her relationship with they guy she left me for isn't working, and I have been promised the command of my unit about four times with each time being taken back. Maybe not a lot for some, but it's about everything I have -
Didn't sleep last night, but I did get an email from one of the JAG up north that said the search wasn't legal - don't know if it's worth much or not. Everyone went to church so it is pretty quiet here. Everytime I look at someone I figure they know and when they start laughing at some inside joke I assume it's me they are laughing at. I know it's not, but can't help the way I feel. I have been left out of the "gang" that used to go to lunch and eat alone (maybe it's part of the punishment). Everyone expects me to go around like nothing happened and keep doing my job, all the while it is very likely my military just took a dump after 16 years of good service. Half of my understands and accepts the distance they place around me - the other half feels that I have been here supporting them for 9 months and deserve a little back even if it is during my mistake. Maybe my friends stuck around and the ones that left weren't really friends anyway. Not that I expected to take everyone home when I left, I just expected a little help through troubled times. I have listened and tried to give advice to each during thier times of need (the stories I could tell).
If you believe in Karma I guess this payback for lots of bad stuff in life that I did. I am here and the family business is going down hill (it has been for a while it's just worse as I can't help), my exwife has been emailing asking for help as her relationship with they guy she left me for isn't working, and I have been promised the command of my unit about four times with each time being taken back. Maybe not a lot for some, but it's about everything I have -