fucking livid...
you know i was going to try to write this entry last night after i got off the phone but i decided against it. ive learned in the past that if you do something when u are extremly emotional it usually doesn't end well. it is all ur true emotions but you may regret actually saying something that you mean. all i can is that i honestly and truely do regret branching my friendships over in novi. some i thought were really good but ive learned that no matter how hard i try to be friends with some it will never work. last night i realized this. pretty much my anger is just an accumulation of a ton of shit that has been going on in my life as of late. between how hard all my classes are this semester, to how petty some of the shit is at my job and how we never have enough staff which screws me over big time, to how close friends were fighting over stuff that shouldn't have gotten in the way of things, to interesting news from lindsay, to this new shit ive just learned about. oh and to top all that it looks like im going to be moving yet again. not sure exactly when that is or where i will be moving to. but im just so over stressed right now trying to deal with all this shit and figure out where i stand with everybody that im just short on my tempers right now. and everything just came together last night when i was on the phone with lindsay. baby im sorry for the way i acted on the phone. after what you told me over the last couple of night ill be honest. it was a shock to hear. but like i told you before i care enough about you that it didn't really bother me. and i meant it. im just tired of people being so fucking decietful and lying to each other. i mean why try to lie right to my fucking face when i allready know what the truth is. all it does it get me more pissed off then i already would be. i just love it, people call themselves my friends and then stab me in the fucking back. well piss off. i don't need friends like that. found myself a nice lil lyric that pretty much summarizes how i feel right now:
You're a fuckin' coke-head, I hope you fuckin' die, I hope you get to hell and Satan sticks a needle in your eye, I hate your fuckin' guts, you fuckin' slut, I hope you die, Di-ii-ii-ii-ii-ii-ie
But please don't get me wrong, I'm not bitter or mad, It's not that I still love you, it's not 'cause I want you back , It's just that when I think of you, it makes me wanna, gag-aa-aa-aa-aa-aa-aa-ag
You don't know how sick you make me, You make me fuckin' sick to my stomach, Every time I think of you, I puke,You must just not know--whoa-whoa-whoa-whoa, You may not think you do, but you do, Every time I think of you, I puke, Fuckin' bitch
yep i definetly think that lyric summarizes things pretty well right now. just to be clear i didn't right down any names of the people who this is about for a reason. this is my personal feelings about them and i don't need others knowing that. i mean i would hate to ruin our great group of trustworthy friends. shit.
i know that there will be more to say about the shit going on in my life right now but for now i got to go get some study time in before my big exam. i just needed to get some of that shit out of my head.
if you have to ask yourself if this entry is about you that should answer your question for you.
if you want to talk you got my number.
if you want to go jump off a cliff ill point ya in the right direction.
Nick out
You're a fuckin' coke-head, I hope you fuckin' die, I hope you get to hell and Satan sticks a needle in your eye, I hate your fuckin' guts, you fuckin' slut, I hope you die, Di-ii-ii-ii-ii-ii-ie
But please don't get me wrong, I'm not bitter or mad, It's not that I still love you, it's not 'cause I want you back , It's just that when I think of you, it makes me wanna, gag-aa-aa-aa-aa-aa-aa-ag
You don't know how sick you make me, You make me fuckin' sick to my stomach, Every time I think of you, I puke,You must just not know--whoa-whoa-whoa-whoa, You may not think you do, but you do, Every time I think of you, I puke, Fuckin' bitch
yep i definetly think that lyric summarizes things pretty well right now. just to be clear i didn't right down any names of the people who this is about for a reason. this is my personal feelings about them and i don't need others knowing that. i mean i would hate to ruin our great group of trustworthy friends. shit.
i know that there will be more to say about the shit going on in my life right now but for now i got to go get some study time in before my big exam. i just needed to get some of that shit out of my head.
if you have to ask yourself if this entry is about you that should answer your question for you.
if you want to talk you got my number.
if you want to go jump off a cliff ill point ya in the right direction.
Nick out