Open up my eager eyes...
The other day I was driving with Sareena and Mr. Brightside came on the radio and we sang. I couldn't help but reflect and remember and tell the story of that song to her, and i think songs are really important in that way. It's this beautiful way of reliving memories, remember situations or times in your life or people. it's so cliche, yet so unique. And hell, I'm in the mood so I am going to remember and recount some songs that come to mind and what/who/where/when comes with it.
Mr. Brightside- The Killers
Since this is why I'm doing this whole thing, this song seems appropriate to go first. It will always remind me off freshmen year at Santa Cruz. it reminds me of Matt, who first played me the song. And most of all, it will always remind me of the girl who is this song. Of all the girls I think I envy and hate at the same time, who use sexuality to get what they want and it is so empowering yet so hurtful all at the same time. But in those people I think we can learn very valuable lessons. I mean, that is what the song is all about isn't it?
Walk Through Hell- Say Anything
This one has multiple memories tied to it for me. One is all of the shows, where me and Alette and Sareena and our highschool would go and sing and enjoy it. This song in particular however, I had never heard before recently. Ian played it for me, and it was her and laura's "song." Which made me want to hate it. but then I thought, holy shit. this is a band that is mine, was mine first, and will always be personal to me. There relationship isn't going to ruin it. And now I love singing to it alone, or with Sareena, or introducing it to s many people as possible. it's just that amazing. If you've heard it, you'll know what I'm talking about.
Mad World- Gary Jules
Summer after senior year I wrote a movie based on my experience and reactions to this song. God, it was so important to me for those months. And then, I remember the first time I ever heard it. Founders Day at Windward and two juniors doing this interpertive danc eto it (one of them being Jamie Lee Curtis' daughter of course, but what can ya do). I saw Gary Jules in "concert" recently and I almost wanted to tell him what his song meant to me and I did have the chance. Then I realized that he probaly wouldn't know what to say, and he didn't really write the song anyways.
Turn me on- That guy who had that hit last summer
Again, last summer on the pier night after seeing "The Villiage" in theaters. That's all I'm gonna say about it here. Just a crazy song and a crazy period. It seems so far away but not. Weird.
Everything in it's right place- Radiohead
Fucking asshole, fucking trust, fucking waste of friendship.
Vanessa Carlton- a thousand miles
ok so I know the song is totally cheesy and whatever, but this is a moment. I was running by my house (in the days where I used to run_ and it was raining. I was dead tired as usual, and listening to the radio on this walkman thing I wore on my arm and this song comes on. For some reason, it jsut fit. The rain, the running, the song together was jsut beautiful. And it was mine. Now I can't really stand that song, but can still feel the moment.
Breakfast At Tiffany's- Deep Blue Something
Washington last spring break with Casey. It was also on the playlist for my coffee bean last summer and i wanted to die everytime it came on. the first memory is the better one, but they are still one simultaneoud recollection. Yup.
Manic Monday- the Bangles
So i got this cd for my like 10th birthday from this girl named natalia and I listened to it and fell in love with this song. Don't ask me how, don't ask me why. It was jsut one of those songs where you sing and dance to it and think your so fucking cool.. and oh ya your ten.
I Wanna Hold Your Hand- The Beatles
This song is one of my earliest memories with my mom in the car driving me to like kindergarden and holding my hand. the memory kinda makes me want to cry because it was so beautiful in its own way and no one knew and even I can only vaguely remeber and appreciate it but it was there and still is.
Peaches and Cream- 112
Summer befor I turned 16, me and Ashley walking around Santa Minica holding our boombox, blasting this soong, think we were the SHIT. Wow.
Lean On me- Al green
Dancing in Sareena's (computer?) room during a really really tough time.
Nobody knows when you're Down and Out- Eric Clapton
My dad giving me a song I could relate to when I was having a really tough time this year.
The Worst Day Since Yesturday- Flogging Molly
Flogging molly was my first not super duper commercialized concert and I've sene them since but I just really like this song. It captures a specific feeling everyone can relate to when going through the tough spots in life and really just makes it easy to sing outloud. It's important.
Hands Down- Dashboard
Again, singing with Sareena on one of those lazy afternoons after highschool and feeling like the world was ours to sing to. I can't help but get all sappy with these memories, not because they neccesarily were but because they were part of the past that was really special and part of our friendship during that time.
Come Back to Bed- John Mayor
So I wasn't really a John Mayor fan at the time per sey, but was lucky enough to see him in concert with my good friend Stacie and this is the song I remmeber him singing most vividly (which is funny, because Wonderland was reeaallyy popualr at the time and I had of course heard that). I think it was because I really wanted to know what that song felt like to actually have. Someone to share that intimacy with was so romantic and so remote to me then. We also had these lesbians hump dancing during the entire thing. it was just such a great night.
Poor Unfortunate Souls- ursella
my father and i were reflecting on this the other day, and it also it an old but amazing memory to have. we used to have this Disney collection of songs when i was a kid we would listen to everyday and when this song came on i would get really scared. my dad loved this of course and used to pretend to be ursella like taking my soul or something. scared the shit out of me too.
This post could probably go on to be 1000 online pages long for all of us. but for what they are, these came to mind for me first tonight. Probably because they are a miz of recent and important songs to me. Whats awesome is that, if were all to make our own lists, each of our would be long. A lot of them would probably use the same songs. But the sum of them would make up entirely individual and unique people and lives.
Mr. Brightside- The Killers
Since this is why I'm doing this whole thing, this song seems appropriate to go first. It will always remind me off freshmen year at Santa Cruz. it reminds me of Matt, who first played me the song. And most of all, it will always remind me of the girl who is this song. Of all the girls I think I envy and hate at the same time, who use sexuality to get what they want and it is so empowering yet so hurtful all at the same time. But in those people I think we can learn very valuable lessons. I mean, that is what the song is all about isn't it?
Walk Through Hell- Say Anything
This one has multiple memories tied to it for me. One is all of the shows, where me and Alette and Sareena and our highschool would go and sing and enjoy it. This song in particular however, I had never heard before recently. Ian played it for me, and it was her and laura's "song." Which made me want to hate it. but then I thought, holy shit. this is a band that is mine, was mine first, and will always be personal to me. There relationship isn't going to ruin it. And now I love singing to it alone, or with Sareena, or introducing it to s many people as possible. it's just that amazing. If you've heard it, you'll know what I'm talking about.
Mad World- Gary Jules
Summer after senior year I wrote a movie based on my experience and reactions to this song. God, it was so important to me for those months. And then, I remember the first time I ever heard it. Founders Day at Windward and two juniors doing this interpertive danc eto it (one of them being Jamie Lee Curtis' daughter of course, but what can ya do). I saw Gary Jules in "concert" recently and I almost wanted to tell him what his song meant to me and I did have the chance. Then I realized that he probaly wouldn't know what to say, and he didn't really write the song anyways.
Turn me on- That guy who had that hit last summer
Again, last summer on the pier night after seeing "The Villiage" in theaters. That's all I'm gonna say about it here. Just a crazy song and a crazy period. It seems so far away but not. Weird.
Everything in it's right place- Radiohead
Fucking asshole, fucking trust, fucking waste of friendship.
Vanessa Carlton- a thousand miles
ok so I know the song is totally cheesy and whatever, but this is a moment. I was running by my house (in the days where I used to run_ and it was raining. I was dead tired as usual, and listening to the radio on this walkman thing I wore on my arm and this song comes on. For some reason, it jsut fit. The rain, the running, the song together was jsut beautiful. And it was mine. Now I can't really stand that song, but can still feel the moment.
Breakfast At Tiffany's- Deep Blue Something
Washington last spring break with Casey. It was also on the playlist for my coffee bean last summer and i wanted to die everytime it came on. the first memory is the better one, but they are still one simultaneoud recollection. Yup.
Manic Monday- the Bangles
So i got this cd for my like 10th birthday from this girl named natalia and I listened to it and fell in love with this song. Don't ask me how, don't ask me why. It was jsut one of those songs where you sing and dance to it and think your so fucking cool.. and oh ya your ten.
I Wanna Hold Your Hand- The Beatles
This song is one of my earliest memories with my mom in the car driving me to like kindergarden and holding my hand. the memory kinda makes me want to cry because it was so beautiful in its own way and no one knew and even I can only vaguely remeber and appreciate it but it was there and still is.
Peaches and Cream- 112
Summer befor I turned 16, me and Ashley walking around Santa Minica holding our boombox, blasting this soong, think we were the SHIT. Wow.
Lean On me- Al green
Dancing in Sareena's (computer?) room during a really really tough time.
Nobody knows when you're Down and Out- Eric Clapton
My dad giving me a song I could relate to when I was having a really tough time this year.
The Worst Day Since Yesturday- Flogging Molly
Flogging molly was my first not super duper commercialized concert and I've sene them since but I just really like this song. It captures a specific feeling everyone can relate to when going through the tough spots in life and really just makes it easy to sing outloud. It's important.
Hands Down- Dashboard
Again, singing with Sareena on one of those lazy afternoons after highschool and feeling like the world was ours to sing to. I can't help but get all sappy with these memories, not because they neccesarily were but because they were part of the past that was really special and part of our friendship during that time.
Come Back to Bed- John Mayor
So I wasn't really a John Mayor fan at the time per sey, but was lucky enough to see him in concert with my good friend Stacie and this is the song I remmeber him singing most vividly (which is funny, because Wonderland was reeaallyy popualr at the time and I had of course heard that). I think it was because I really wanted to know what that song felt like to actually have. Someone to share that intimacy with was so romantic and so remote to me then. We also had these lesbians hump dancing during the entire thing. it was just such a great night.
Poor Unfortunate Souls- ursella
my father and i were reflecting on this the other day, and it also it an old but amazing memory to have. we used to have this Disney collection of songs when i was a kid we would listen to everyday and when this song came on i would get really scared. my dad loved this of course and used to pretend to be ursella like taking my soul or something. scared the shit out of me too.
This post could probably go on to be 1000 online pages long for all of us. but for what they are, these came to mind for me first tonight. Probably because they are a miz of recent and important songs to me. Whats awesome is that, if were all to make our own lists, each of our would be long. A lot of them would probably use the same songs. But the sum of them would make up entirely individual and unique people and lives.