It's 2 o' clock in the morning..
Well, more like 2:40.
Last night I went to Sabeana's house and we had a sleep over. We talked and caught up and looked at pictures and ate Indian food (damn i miss it when she's not around) and just had a really nice relaxing time. It wasn't the "really cute themed movie sleepover" we had originally planned, but it was nice in its own way. it was me and sareena being me and Sareena, and we don't get a chance to do that too often anymore.
I was thinking today about the past. And watching people who were once really close to you move on. And how weird that would be, having to see it. I guess in a perfect world we would be able to attach and detach our feelings like... like clothing. A glove. But it becomes so much more complicated then that. Love turns to hate, hate turns to obsession, and in between there is this whole game of are we still friends? But I want to fuck him over. When will he move on? Will I move on?
Confusing stuff.
And then some people feel the need to post everything on the internet.
And then some of us choose to, because they can't help not to for some reason, read it.
Gah.
I also worked tonight. Sometimes I wanna get all womens rights and be on this "i can do anything a man can" trip and its very empowering. Other times like tonight, when I'm taking out the grabage in the middle of this shady dark ally (i have to carry the huge container on wheels filled with garbage like the ones you leave in front of your house), some of those bags are HEAVY, and theres this rotten repulsive smell coming from it I can't help but ask "why cant a fucking guy be doing this?" I know I know.. I'll slap my wrist tomorrow.
Hopefully I'll also give my 2 weeks notice.
I really want to have a car in Santa Cruz this year. But I don't think it's gonna happen. I'm gonna try though.
I'm also going to have a garage sale soon.
I might take a screenwriting class online.
I am also going to check the smc catalog for an interesting class. Big maybe though.
I want to write a list of things to do before going home (thanks to Abbey for the idea :D) and one is definately going to be buying a star map and cruising.
I haven't been listening to enough music lately and it's sad.
My next read is "Survivor." I just have to buy the damn book.
I have also decided I am so ready to go back to school. I don't see myslef ever living in this house for nearly this long ever again in my life. And if I could go to davis and not come back this moment, I would.
My car sucks. Anyone want it?
Haha.
I'm tired.
And now it's 3.
Last night I went to Sabeana's house and we had a sleep over. We talked and caught up and looked at pictures and ate Indian food (damn i miss it when she's not around) and just had a really nice relaxing time. It wasn't the "really cute themed movie sleepover" we had originally planned, but it was nice in its own way. it was me and sareena being me and Sareena, and we don't get a chance to do that too often anymore.
I was thinking today about the past. And watching people who were once really close to you move on. And how weird that would be, having to see it. I guess in a perfect world we would be able to attach and detach our feelings like... like clothing. A glove. But it becomes so much more complicated then that. Love turns to hate, hate turns to obsession, and in between there is this whole game of are we still friends? But I want to fuck him over. When will he move on? Will I move on?
Confusing stuff.
And then some people feel the need to post everything on the internet.
And then some of us choose to, because they can't help not to for some reason, read it.
Gah.
I also worked tonight. Sometimes I wanna get all womens rights and be on this "i can do anything a man can" trip and its very empowering. Other times like tonight, when I'm taking out the grabage in the middle of this shady dark ally (i have to carry the huge container on wheels filled with garbage like the ones you leave in front of your house), some of those bags are HEAVY, and theres this rotten repulsive smell coming from it I can't help but ask "why cant a fucking guy be doing this?" I know I know.. I'll slap my wrist tomorrow.
Hopefully I'll also give my 2 weeks notice.
I really want to have a car in Santa Cruz this year. But I don't think it's gonna happen. I'm gonna try though.
I'm also going to have a garage sale soon.
I might take a screenwriting class online.
I am also going to check the smc catalog for an interesting class. Big maybe though.
I want to write a list of things to do before going home (thanks to Abbey for the idea :D) and one is definately going to be buying a star map and cruising.
I haven't been listening to enough music lately and it's sad.
My next read is "Survivor." I just have to buy the damn book.
I have also decided I am so ready to go back to school. I don't see myslef ever living in this house for nearly this long ever again in my life. And if I could go to davis and not come back this moment, I would.
My car sucks. Anyone want it?
Haha.
I'm tired.
And now it's 3.