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alright, so... hung out w/ kevin yesterday for 6 hours =) and I enoyed every min of it. He's not only a good guy, but a good friend. Always lookin out for the best for me....and bein honest even if its not what I want to hear. I hung out w/ Tyler and his family on Easter, and he asked me back after like 3 hours on the phone saturday night, but shit I didn't really answer him b/c he is just such a lil player...i dont think he can settle down to one girl, especially ME??? So, for right now I think I'm gonna stick w/ hangin out w/ kevin and shit..he makes me happy about myself unlike EVERYONE else. Hes hinted lil things about g/f b/f shit..but i really DONT KNOW. I've wanted someone in my life for SO long, but now I'm unsure. Idk if its b/c im scared.... not ready....too ready? ughh idk. It's like summer is commin up, I'm gettin a new car.. a lot of things are gonna change w/ my status, like I know my life is gonna be so hectic b/c i'm gonna be livin w/ johnny. I just realized the other day that I'm gonna have to take SHOWERS at his house. I mean how weird is that? Yea im tight w/ him, hes my boi for life...but still lol. Maybe I should wait and see what the summer brings. ugh idk ne more. i can't afford summer school...and it makes me disappointed in myself to say, but even if I did idk if i'd go. Yea i might for .5 credit...but not the other .5 that I need...thats my WHOLE summer almost. I gotta get shit figured out w/ this adult ed.
me and jeni are fighting i guess you could say? Haven't talked in 3 days... i dont know who to turn to ne more. I have 3 ppl I KNOW i can turn to..kevin, johnny, and josh. Kevin's always been there for me even last year in may? just always. good guy for sure =)
seen chrystal yesterday when me and kev went out to eat at arbys....caught up on sum small stuff, missed her =/
oh and yea... gotta ticket for FIGHTING? wtf. My aunt said were DEF fighting it =) ahhahha bitches.
umm but today, went to work for 4.5 hours...went to my grams grave and put a lil present on it for her. The first time i've even been there since she died...5 months. wow. i sat on the ground and cried and talked out loud. I felt weird but comfortable b/c its like i know shes listening? idk. maybe im crazi. THen i went to my friend Ashely's house b/c I haven't seen her in 11 months...visited for an hour or so..read some old 6th grade notes that we wrote and shit lol, nice seeing her.
i feel lost and not in control...but yet i feel like i know exactly where im going?
w/e peace.
me and jeni are fighting i guess you could say? Haven't talked in 3 days... i dont know who to turn to ne more. I have 3 ppl I KNOW i can turn to..kevin, johnny, and josh. Kevin's always been there for me even last year in may? just always. good guy for sure =)
seen chrystal yesterday when me and kev went out to eat at arbys....caught up on sum small stuff, missed her =/
oh and yea... gotta ticket for FIGHTING? wtf. My aunt said were DEF fighting it =) ahhahha bitches.
umm but today, went to work for 4.5 hours...went to my grams grave and put a lil present on it for her. The first time i've even been there since she died...5 months. wow. i sat on the ground and cried and talked out loud. I felt weird but comfortable b/c its like i know shes listening? idk. maybe im crazi. THen i went to my friend Ashely's house b/c I haven't seen her in 11 months...visited for an hour or so..read some old 6th grade notes that we wrote and shit lol, nice seeing her.
i feel lost and not in control...but yet i feel like i know exactly where im going?
w/e peace.