hello there, how are you?
met my elementary school friends and some of them already married, have kid/s and live happily as a tiny family. i think it's beautiful to see them happy with their husbands/wives. one of them is pregnant about a month old and she looked so happy, and pretty. i don't know, maybe pregnancy makes her looks prettier.
i wonder if i have a chance to live as a wife happily, i mean, im used to be a free spirit that not belong to anyone, even having a boyfriend is such a pain for me. when will i fell in love to someone deeply i could give my life to him? the last time i love someone like that ended up miserably hurt. like, i never feel anything since then. like falling in love is spooky thing lol
im afraid to get hurt, maybe that's why it's hard for me to open myself and let someone in. im so scared to the point that i dont even care about married. it's not that i dont want to get married, i just dont want to think about it or make a plan about it.
so.. someone told me that married is wonderful. i wonder.. is it really that wonderful?
i wonder if i have a chance to live as a wife happily, i mean, im used to be a free spirit that not belong to anyone, even having a boyfriend is such a pain for me. when will i fell in love to someone deeply i could give my life to him? the last time i love someone like that ended up miserably hurt. like, i never feel anything since then. like falling in love is spooky thing lol
im afraid to get hurt, maybe that's why it's hard for me to open myself and let someone in. im so scared to the point that i dont even care about married. it's not that i dont want to get married, i just dont want to think about it or make a plan about it.
so.. someone told me that married is wonderful. i wonder.. is it really that wonderful?