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what the fuck is wrong with guys? how can you have absolutely nothing to say and no thoughts going through your fucking stupid mind. what the fuck is wrong with him? its not too much to ask that he fucking communicate with me, his girlfriend of 9 fucking months. if he can't do this now than why the fuck should i keep trying to god damn hard. its fucking ridiculous. i honestly don't know if this stupid relationship is even worth this much trouble. i dont get this fucking kid. how can he say he loves me but expect me to just forget about everything and let him keep on going on and hurting my feelings and not saying anything and never saying anything. what the fuck. if i make things so fucking difficult for him then why is he still with me? i hate this. it makes me feel like he's just with me for the sex or something fucking ridiculous like that. which i wouldnt fucking doubt considering everything. i hate that. i cant just have a fucking relationship with someone that only wants to be with me for sex. i hate him right now. why is he doing this to me? doesnt he understand that i need more than this from him? i need something, anything from him. more than just this stupid fucking god damn bullshit NOTHING. i really dont know why he's still with me if everything that i want from him is so fucking hard for him to shell out. when you're in a relationship you put some fucking effort in and try to do things to make the other person think that you actually want to be with them. what the fuck is his problem. i dont care if he doesnt like talking i could give two shits less. he should be willing to try and say SOMETHING to me if he loves me like he says he does. i hate him. i dont know why i'm dealing with this. yes i do. i fucking hate this so much. i just want to fucking strangle him or something. god damn he fucking pisses me off. and i cant fucking talk to him because it doesnt even matter and everything i say just flows out into space and i doubt he even fucking hears me when i talk anymore. he just thinks i'm saying the same things over and over but i'm not. well i am but maybe he could try and have a reaction to something i say and maybe i wouldnt keep repeating myself. i jsut want to fucking talk to him like a normal person and have some sort of reaction and response from him. its like talking to a god damn wall. i cant stand it. i wanna kill him. this is seriously making me have like a fucking breakdown right now. i dont even know what to do with myself. and i just want someone to fucking talk to but no...all of my friends are obviously otherwise occupied. i hate this. hate hate hate hate. what is wrong with me? what is wrong with HIM. why does he keep doing this stupid shit to me. what the fuck. everything is so much to ask from him. well apparently i'm just like every other girlfriend he's had and apparently i'm not worth it to him. i dont know what to fucking do. this is so fucking stupid. and he thinks that i'll just forget everything and go on like everything is fine but i cant do that because i cant just not have feelings about things like he can. i really cant fucking deal with this shit.