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Everyone's going back to school and talking about how much they like their classes and all I can think about is how I was too poor to pay my freaking tuition, therefore, I'm sitting here at home, wondering what it's like to dorm and be away from home. I guess I'm okay with staying home, but I kinda wish that I had just went to UB or something. I would have had class this morning. I would be starting my college career. Instead, I'm stuck working at burger king, waiting for the spring semester so that I can finally learn something. I don't even know if this is what I want to do. I don't know what I want to do. Do I want to major in math? Do I want to major in Interior Design? I don't know, dammit! I wish I knew. I can't wait until I turn 18. Everyone's already 18 around me because I have a late birthday, and it sucks. I want to get a credit card and establish some credit, I want to be able to go to the heart doctor this wednesday for my EKG without my mom having to go with me because I'm a minor. I want to buy cigarettes and lottery tickets. I want to get out of here. I want to rent an apartment in MY name. I want to go to school. I want everything. I don't know what I want.
I hope I don't have any kind of heart problems. I'm going to a Cardiologist on Wednesday at 9:45 AM for an EKG which is some test where they stick those sticky circles on your chest that are hooked up to a machine and then a paper comes out with some readings. I don't know what it tests or what's wrong with me, but all I know is that I keep having really bad heart pains and stuff. I have to go get bloodwork done too and last time I did that, I screamed and cried for like 20 minutes while they did it, which of course made it worse. I hate needles, and I don't like the idea of 4 flasks of blood coming out of my body, thank you very much!
No one will probably read this, considering I don't have many friends anymore. I screwed that one up the ass. Becca's in Brockport now, Kayla went to NU (not that I won't see her, but she's still dorming), I don't really talk to Kim too much anymore (not by choice). I have my Heather though. And Tony too. I don't know. It's my fault, so I'm not complaining.
The only thing I'm complaining about is the fact that I want to be in school right now and I can't. I thought I could afford a bigger school but I guess I can't. I guess I have to go to a little school where they make you believe in God. I guess I have to go to Villa Maria for Interior Design. I guess I want to....
I hope I don't have any kind of heart problems. I'm going to a Cardiologist on Wednesday at 9:45 AM for an EKG which is some test where they stick those sticky circles on your chest that are hooked up to a machine and then a paper comes out with some readings. I don't know what it tests or what's wrong with me, but all I know is that I keep having really bad heart pains and stuff. I have to go get bloodwork done too and last time I did that, I screamed and cried for like 20 minutes while they did it, which of course made it worse. I hate needles, and I don't like the idea of 4 flasks of blood coming out of my body, thank you very much!
No one will probably read this, considering I don't have many friends anymore. I screwed that one up the ass. Becca's in Brockport now, Kayla went to NU (not that I won't see her, but she's still dorming), I don't really talk to Kim too much anymore (not by choice). I have my Heather though. And Tony too. I don't know. It's my fault, so I'm not complaining.
The only thing I'm complaining about is the fact that I want to be in school right now and I can't. I thought I could afford a bigger school but I guess I can't. I guess I have to go to a little school where they make you believe in God. I guess I have to go to Villa Maria for Interior Design. I guess I want to....