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I need to get away from these people who are ostracizing me.
I'm right here, but I'm hardly invited. I'm more like an afterthought. And I don't really understand why. Am I that unpleasant? I'm a nice girl. At least I used to be. But not being invited is making me bitter and even more anti-social. I don't want to hang around people when I'm not wanted.
I think I'm just not compatible with these people. We don't really have the same interests. They like to go out all the time spending money and not doing homework or studying.
And then I call Chris when I don't feel like hanging out with them but I don't want to be alone. I still feel comfortable with him. Even though he acts even stranger than before, he actually cares about me. Everyone says I shouldn't be hanging out with my ex so much. But I feel like I don't have anyone else to turn to.
Or the people that I could turn to are far away.
I'm starting to wish I weren't on CASA board this year. It isn't really for me anymore. But I made a commitment, and I have to stick to it. I just wish these people who gave the impression that they would be my friend would actually start caring.
I'm right here, but I'm hardly invited. I'm more like an afterthought. And I don't really understand why. Am I that unpleasant? I'm a nice girl. At least I used to be. But not being invited is making me bitter and even more anti-social. I don't want to hang around people when I'm not wanted.
I think I'm just not compatible with these people. We don't really have the same interests. They like to go out all the time spending money and not doing homework or studying.
And then I call Chris when I don't feel like hanging out with them but I don't want to be alone. I still feel comfortable with him. Even though he acts even stranger than before, he actually cares about me. Everyone says I shouldn't be hanging out with my ex so much. But I feel like I don't have anyone else to turn to.
Or the people that I could turn to are far away.
I'm starting to wish I weren't on CASA board this year. It isn't really for me anymore. But I made a commitment, and I have to stick to it. I just wish these people who gave the impression that they would be my friend would actually start caring.