all work and no play makes me a dull boy
well, today a text was sent asking to have trent for the weekend. my reply.."no."
then i was presented with "may i ask why" which i ignored. then "can i cme and see them for an hour" which i also ignored. my faith in myself is really tested right now, i'm on a road of self discovery, my findings...i'm too forgiving. even when i should not be at all. its difficult for me to contradict my morals. (the whole dont waste precious time feuding when you can better spend it loving) but i have to stand up for my son. he is too young to do it for himself. and i took that vow the day i gave birth to forever protect him from EVERYTHING that could harm him. so am i doing the right thing even if its "wrong"...? yeah.
i'm trying to not feel bad.
then i was presented with "may i ask why" which i ignored. then "can i cme and see them for an hour" which i also ignored. my faith in myself is really tested right now, i'm on a road of self discovery, my findings...i'm too forgiving. even when i should not be at all. its difficult for me to contradict my morals. (the whole dont waste precious time feuding when you can better spend it loving) but i have to stand up for my son. he is too young to do it for himself. and i took that vow the day i gave birth to forever protect him from EVERYTHING that could harm him. so am i doing the right thing even if its "wrong"...? yeah.
i'm trying to not feel bad.