depressed much?
i dont know what's wrong with me :(
i feel so lonely and so very very replaced.
there are only a few people i feel like i can trust...
and it's not like they're people i spend mounds of time with.
oh top of feelings like i've got no friends, im lonely in the boy sense.
but that's not really new.
idk what's up, but im just not into anyone.
there are a few cute guys, but...
idk, there's only one guy constantly on my mind.
and you definately guessed it, it's kansas.
who i dreamed about once again last night.
y is my perfect boy living somewhere else?
i did have a good christmas though.
i got a lot of the things i wanted and i appreciate my family a lot.
for once, i dont feel like they hate me.
i've been a complete bum lately, i sit around and watch tv.
all i can truely say for myself is that i get off my ass for about an hour and 30 mins everyday to work out, and im trying to eat healthier.
5 miles or more on my mom's bike, at a high resistance, and then sit ups, push ups, etc.
idk, isnt excersize supposed to make you feel better about yourself?
cause i feel like shit right now.
:/
i dont know what else to say.
i feel awful, but at least im done with my cold.
i feel so lonely and so very very replaced.
there are only a few people i feel like i can trust...
and it's not like they're people i spend mounds of time with.
oh top of feelings like i've got no friends, im lonely in the boy sense.
but that's not really new.
idk what's up, but im just not into anyone.
there are a few cute guys, but...
idk, there's only one guy constantly on my mind.
and you definately guessed it, it's kansas.
who i dreamed about once again last night.
y is my perfect boy living somewhere else?
i did have a good christmas though.
i got a lot of the things i wanted and i appreciate my family a lot.
for once, i dont feel like they hate me.
i've been a complete bum lately, i sit around and watch tv.
all i can truely say for myself is that i get off my ass for about an hour and 30 mins everyday to work out, and im trying to eat healthier.
5 miles or more on my mom's bike, at a high resistance, and then sit ups, push ups, etc.
idk, isnt excersize supposed to make you feel better about yourself?
cause i feel like shit right now.
:/
i dont know what else to say.
i feel awful, but at least im done with my cold.