018. Reflect

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Medusa.

You wanted them all to fucking suffer. And to hurt the way it always alwaysalways fucking hurts. But nothing is working Medusa. It will never be sorry because it will NEVER FUCKING UNDERSTAND what you felt and what it meant and Athena

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[athena_polias]

A date? You're going on a date? With who? Is he nice? Does he respect you? Are you bringing a knife? A gun? Nuclear bomb? Have you done a back ground check? Is it a he?

I hope you have a great time.

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... Thank you, Athena.

[Filter: Athena]

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For stuff.

[Filter: Medusa]

[athena_polias]

I'm glad I could help. If..... you need anything else, let me know.

[Filter: Athena]

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Fuckity fuck fuck.[gone] On a pogo stick.[gone]

... You handled teenager her[gone] me very well.

[Filter: Medusa]

[athena_polias]

I wasn't going to fail you twice.

You were an angel...except for those pictures...............................

I wasn't going to fail you twice.

[Filter: Athena][Voice] 1/2

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[Shaky and light.] It wasn't your-

She I mean-

[Filter: Athena][Voice] 2/2

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[And she sobs.] She knows what you think. They all wanted to believe those things were just tricks. But she knows. She FUCKING knows. She could see it in the way you looked at her in that moment. Before sending your snakes. The ghosts that came stared the same. It was the fucking same.

And I I as in me as in MEDUSA know it wasn't you. That you're seven-fucking-teen. Not her. Not anything yet. When the bitch of a titan decided her body and mind hadn't had enough I was so delighted to have my goddess so ... close. In age. In space. Until I had to wake up myself again and see your face on my wall

She should... forgive you. Because it wasn't your fault. Your eyes aren't even the same yet.

But I can't.

[Filter: Medusa][Voice] ;_;

[athena_polias]

[She's quiet for a long pause. When she finally does speak, her voice is low, and very very controlled.]

You never have to forgive me, Medusa. What I did...will do... is something I don't even understand. But I do know it's not something that can be forgiven, or atoned for.

[Her voice goes shaky now too]

Y-you can't forgive me, and I can't stop begging forgiveness. I-I think...[swallow, don't cry!] that's the way it should be.

[Filter: Athena][Voice] ♥

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But I can't fucking live this way!

[A flash of frustration, even Cerberus can connected and be loved and she can't, but it doesn't get away from her this time.]

Should be is far from where we are.

[Filter: Medusa][Voice]

[athena_polias]

[She's more in control of herself again, though hints of something like tenderness peeks through here and there.]

I'm full of advice and positive reinforcement for you, but I'll save it. You don't need lectured by me.

I will say this: If you want your life to change, I believe that you can change it. You've already made the right choices. Go on your date. Have fun.

[Filter: Athena][Voice]

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... I do look pretty fucking amazing.

[Filter: Medusa][Voice]

[athena_polias]

I bet.

Knock 'em dead....

Figuratively speaking.

[Filter: Athena][Voice]

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She makes no promises.

[Filter: Medusa][Voice]

[athena_polias]

How bout I just keep my fingers crossed then?

[Filter: Athena][Voice]

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No skin off my nose.