flowers in public

[badpoodles]

i am in love with more than just one person...so much more

i am in love with having to wait til someone leaves the room to crack my knuckles.

i am in love with someone else always getting to say "i win"

i am in love with being thrown against the kitchen wall.

and i am in love with cute little nicknames that boys should never have.

but i have more than love

i have a fetish for closet sex

but i want more than closet sex

i want to sit around and watch the same five videos on MTV all day.

but i pray for more than MTV

i pray that this winter when i am wrapped up warm and cozy in my bed someone comes from the freezing outdoors and interupts my slumber and steals my warmth.

but i dream before i am awakened

i dream of a girl who sleeps wrapped up in me, breathing on my face all night.

i hunger for more than a girl

i hunger for taco bell, that someone else gets to eat.

but i wish for more than taco bell

i wish i was what she wished for

but i am more than what she wishes for

i am what i was the second the dream started

i am in love.