JEB.
I know you probably don't even read my journal anymore, but every time I see pictures of you, smell something that reminds me of you, hear songs that we used to jam on a regular basis [and one saves the day song in particular], or hear/see anything that reminds me of you, I get teary-eyed and either start crying, or I end up fighting back tears.. I don't know what to do though.. :0/ My heart feels like it breaks because of this a lot.. Maybe it's my fault. Maybe it's your's. Maybe it's both. That's pretty irrelevant though.. what good would it do to place blame on someone?? It wouldn't make one tiny bit of difference.
I was hanging out with my good friend Becky [who's fucking leaving for IRAQ 2 goddamn days after my birthday] and her boyfriend Mike a few days ago, and Mike felt like putting on the new Saves the Day early recordings and b-sides album.. well he put it on this one song [Take Our Cars Now!] and as soon as I heard the first note I felt tears welling up in my eyes.. I tried so fucking hard to hide it. Didn't work. :0/
Take Our Cars Now!
by Saves The Day
Don't you remember the last time
I was speeding down this highway
and Anna slept in the backseat,
dreaming in the autumn heat
and we turned up the country radio and
said if you want me just say so
and I slicked back my hair in the wind
And I told you I didn't want my picture taken
but you snapped it anyway now I guess now
I guess you won't have trouble remembering me someday, someday
So I floored it, swerved around the lanes
and I kept wishing it was you,
instead of me behind the wheel
so maybe with my camera I could steal a shot of you
and go home to put in my room
And I told you I didn't want my picture taken
but you snapped it anyway now I guess now
I guess you won't have trouble remembering me someday, someday
But maybe, you'll never remember me
Maybe my face will lose these scars
Cause sometimes they keep me home at night,
where I duck under the covers and wince when I see the light
(whoa oa whoa oa whoa oa whoa oa)
And I told you I didn't want my picture taken
but you snapped it anyway now I guess now
I guess you won't have trouble remembering me someday, someday
yeah
*siiigh*
I wish I could change whatever it was that made us part.. but the past is exactly that.. the past. I don't know what to do to try to correct it.. maybe there's nothing I can do at all. I'm just so sorry for all the hurt you feel, even when it's not my fault.. I just wish that I could do somethin, anything at all, to make you feel happy..
hahahahahahah.. this post is so emo sounding.. I'm not pathetic! I swear!!
There's not point in my rambling on too much more about this.. I just want you to know, I have never stopped loving and caring about you.. and I never will.
I was hanging out with my good friend Becky [who's fucking leaving for IRAQ 2 goddamn days after my birthday] and her boyfriend Mike a few days ago, and Mike felt like putting on the new Saves the Day early recordings and b-sides album.. well he put it on this one song [Take Our Cars Now!] and as soon as I heard the first note I felt tears welling up in my eyes.. I tried so fucking hard to hide it. Didn't work. :0/
Take Our Cars Now!
by Saves The Day
Don't you remember the last time
I was speeding down this highway
and Anna slept in the backseat,
dreaming in the autumn heat
and we turned up the country radio and
said if you want me just say so
and I slicked back my hair in the wind
And I told you I didn't want my picture taken
but you snapped it anyway now I guess now
I guess you won't have trouble remembering me someday, someday
So I floored it, swerved around the lanes
and I kept wishing it was you,
instead of me behind the wheel
so maybe with my camera I could steal a shot of you
and go home to put in my room
And I told you I didn't want my picture taken
but you snapped it anyway now I guess now
I guess you won't have trouble remembering me someday, someday
But maybe, you'll never remember me
Maybe my face will lose these scars
Cause sometimes they keep me home at night,
where I duck under the covers and wince when I see the light
(whoa oa whoa oa whoa oa whoa oa)
And I told you I didn't want my picture taken
but you snapped it anyway now I guess now
I guess you won't have trouble remembering me someday, someday
yeah
*siiigh*
I wish I could change whatever it was that made us part.. but the past is exactly that.. the past. I don't know what to do to try to correct it.. maybe there's nothing I can do at all. I'm just so sorry for all the hurt you feel, even when it's not my fault.. I just wish that I could do somethin, anything at all, to make you feel happy..
hahahahahahah.. this post is so emo sounding.. I'm not pathetic! I swear!!
There's not point in my rambling on too much more about this.. I just want you to know, I have never stopped loving and caring about you.. and I never will.