i hate myself and want to die.
i have nothing left to live for. everyday something important to me fucks me over or figuratively stabs me in the face. they dont even stab me in the back, they stab me right in my fucking face, perhaps just below my left eye. My mo is using, and picked cole/drugs over me. CC is fucking pissed at me cuz some bitch said i said some shit, and it fucking breaks my heart that she would beleive whoever it fucking was, over me. i'd take a bullet for her, she's like my daughter, and when she beleives i would say something like whatever the bitch told her i said. if i ever did say anything like that, i was joking, and i would most likely say it to her face. i feel sneaky, even though i didnt do anything. she doesnt even want to slavage the relationship, i feel like i wasted so much time on her. and i still love her and would die for her. i want to take care of her, and she doesnt even give a fuck. kill me now.