Return of the...
insert your word of choice here...
Anyway, after having a computer go boom, the continuing car miserys, (The temporary solution of the van ended up setting my back 2500 or so over the past 4 or so months) i have been out of touch. I literally have no clue how any of yall have been doing. I have tons of catching up to do.
As for me?? feh.. well. i have no regrets. Yea, you can bitch at me. Mistake? maybe.. Probably. But opportunity was there. See, a newly clean Heather offered up a place to stay that was like 6 exits from my work place. Let me again say.. about this i have NO regrets. In fact i was extremely proud of her for cleaning herself up, and she did do in fact just that.
But- it didnt work out. Thats it. thats all there is to it.
again, i have NO regrets about any of this...NONE. Especially because it has given me new drive and purpose. going forward, i am moving over to a night shift job starting next week... im taking about 3 months to get used to the new hours, in which time, i will have something hammered out financing a new car, as the AC has gone out on the van, and im done puting money into that. time to sweat it, and use it as motivation to keep me on target. by that time, iwill have figured out how to deal with night schedule.
then im going back to school. Respiratory therapy. This is something deeply personal to me and has always been somethng i have thought about doing for a long long time. its a 2 year program that leads to a world of OTHER possibilites later, its also a job that you can pick up a paper and see that people are offering 5000, 7500 sign on bonuses to fill. Technology may change, but people will always need to breath. plus.... the shool im eyeballing? has campuses here, and in Ft Lauderdale and Miami....... if i have the money i think a change in location could do me WORLDS of good--- and there is even a small possibility that i could transfer to one of those schools in a year.
I can tell you more if you havent given up on me already.. but... i know ive been wrong. Even tho, i know i was wrong, i tell you once again, i have no regrets on ANYTHING. there are things i have to find out for myself, and i still am in the process of learning them all.
If you are still here with me? know that yea, i am coming out wounded and scarred but better for it. If you still love me? then know that I have another mountain ahead of me to climb, but im willing to put in the work to make this happen, its time and effort... the effort i can give, but the time in between?? If you love me then put it into your "prayers or thoughts" for me to find contentment NOW. Let me find peace in my decisions going forward, and what i will obviously have to leave behind to make it happen.
I have no regrets because if all that has transpired was what had to happen to motivate myself... then it did serve a purpose.
Anyway, after having a computer go boom, the continuing car miserys, (The temporary solution of the van ended up setting my back 2500 or so over the past 4 or so months) i have been out of touch. I literally have no clue how any of yall have been doing. I have tons of catching up to do.
As for me?? feh.. well. i have no regrets. Yea, you can bitch at me. Mistake? maybe.. Probably. But opportunity was there. See, a newly clean Heather offered up a place to stay that was like 6 exits from my work place. Let me again say.. about this i have NO regrets. In fact i was extremely proud of her for cleaning herself up, and she did do in fact just that.
But- it didnt work out. Thats it. thats all there is to it.
again, i have NO regrets about any of this...NONE. Especially because it has given me new drive and purpose. going forward, i am moving over to a night shift job starting next week... im taking about 3 months to get used to the new hours, in which time, i will have something hammered out financing a new car, as the AC has gone out on the van, and im done puting money into that. time to sweat it, and use it as motivation to keep me on target. by that time, iwill have figured out how to deal with night schedule.
then im going back to school. Respiratory therapy. This is something deeply personal to me and has always been somethng i have thought about doing for a long long time. its a 2 year program that leads to a world of OTHER possibilites later, its also a job that you can pick up a paper and see that people are offering 5000, 7500 sign on bonuses to fill. Technology may change, but people will always need to breath. plus.... the shool im eyeballing? has campuses here, and in Ft Lauderdale and Miami....... if i have the money i think a change in location could do me WORLDS of good--- and there is even a small possibility that i could transfer to one of those schools in a year.
I can tell you more if you havent given up on me already.. but... i know ive been wrong. Even tho, i know i was wrong, i tell you once again, i have no regrets on ANYTHING. there are things i have to find out for myself, and i still am in the process of learning them all.
If you are still here with me? know that yea, i am coming out wounded and scarred but better for it. If you still love me? then know that I have another mountain ahead of me to climb, but im willing to put in the work to make this happen, its time and effort... the effort i can give, but the time in between?? If you love me then put it into your "prayers or thoughts" for me to find contentment NOW. Let me find peace in my decisions going forward, and what i will obviously have to leave behind to make it happen.
I have no regrets because if all that has transpired was what had to happen to motivate myself... then it did serve a purpose.