Fic Of The Week - Week Twenty Four

[badly_knitted]

The last week has certainly flown by! Hope everyone enjoyed last week's fic. I know I did! For this week, I've picked two very different fics - a reel_torchwood fic and a CoE fixit. I felt like a bit of variety, lol!

The first one is iolo1234 's take on Tootsie, the Dustin Hoffman film, using our lovely Torchwood characters. Originally posted in February 2011, it's

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[debmommy22]

Ok, is the other one good? It sounded like fun if I remember correctly. I will have to go back and read your post again. Things are really tough again and I've had an awful start to my day. My memory is shot.

I just paid several bills and I am trying to get an appointment with a new Psychiatrist. Dr. Marshall is an old guy, very good doctor, but his health is not good, and he is out on medical leave. He had surgery, I just found out today. I will run out of my regular meds if I don't see someone else until he comes back.

Nancy changed my pain medication to hydrocodine, not as strong a pain killer, but thought it might not give me the rash/hives?...well I took the first one last night and woke up in the worst shape yet. I not only was breaking out with these hot, now "all" raised welts, I was so nausous, and trying to hide it from Alex, but I think that only made things worse, I'm sure Alex saw the pain in my face even when I tried to smile. :( I didn't really realize which med caused it so I took one of the stupid hydrocodones today. Stupid! I guess I will be sick all day. Michael says it makes his mother sick too, so tonight I will go back to the other one "Percocet aka Oxycodone" I've used both words just to confuse you in the past. lol! I can remember how to spell Percocet better so I used it. They are basically the same drug. Benedryl seems to be of no use anymore, I keep increasing it, but it doesn't help that I can see. I've about run out again. Need to buy another box or two because somehow it makes me less scared. Weird huh? I thought it might keep my lips or eyes from swelling up again like they did on the way to the beach. GEEZ! Just stick me back in the mental hospital and leave me there! Just kidding.

I really think I understand now why you got off those terrible drugs a long time ago. I wish I could. I guess I am just going to have to live through this and hopefully we will find the answers.

Nancy gave me these steroid pills to stop the allergic reaction, but so far it hasn't helped. Of course I only started them last night. I take them for six days so I will have to be patient. Michael doesn't think they cause nausea, just water weight gain (oh yay!) NOT!...but that will go away after I stop taking them.

I still wonder if it isn't the antidepressant, but I won't know without stopping it, and I don't know what to do. Michael says no, I was in worse shape mentally off of them, but I can't take this constant itching. I don't sleep well or wake up too early like today and as soon as I think about them, there they are. Maybe I am doing it to myself worrying so much, though Michael says no. I hope he is right. I am on so much crap I want to scream! I wish I could just stop taking all of it, but I know I can't. I felt like dying again this morning, but I am in too good of health otherwise to be "that Lucky!" LOL! If I survive this, I will either be stronger or dead!...that didn't make sense?

Sorry to spout all this out on your LJ. Should have wrote it on a new post. I guess I just like talking just to you sometimes. You're my friend, my special friend and I know you understand this kind of pain. :)

Oh I was crying in Michael's arms this morning too, forgot to tell you, just edited this post. Like you wanted to know that part too.

Thanks! Delete me if you want to. LOL!

love Deb* aka mental patient*

[badly_knitted]

SOMETHING has to work! You're on so many meds now, it wouldn't surprise me if the problems are being caused by two of them reacting badly to each other. I know some meds have bad reactions when taken with certain others. It's so unfair though - you take something to deal with one problem and it causes another. I wish there was more I could do instead of just lending an ear and sympathising. Not fond of hydrocodine myself - I've been on it before, back while I had gallstones and was waiting for surgery, but I prefer to avoid it. Then again, I don't like taking painkillers anyway. I take paracetomol if I'm getting a migraine, which is silly because I know it doesn't work, but sometimes my headaches aren't migraines and then it works, so I sometimes try, just in case.

Do you remember the Dustin Hoffman movie 'Tootsie'? The first fic this week is basically that but with the Torchwood characters in the major roles. It's cute. I have two chapters left to read, which I will read in a few minutes. The chapters arfe short and don't take long to read, and it's light and fluffy fun.

Hope you're feeling a bit better now. Take care of yourself and hopefully everything will settle down. Stress definitely doesn't help, but it's nearly impossible not to be stressed when you're itchy and in pain. Is there anything you can do that relaxes you? I think I remember you saying something about scented candles... Anyway, try to relax a bit if you can. *hugs carefully* Love, J xxx

[debmommy22]

You do so much just listening to me and being my friend. I know I cause Michael to get so stressed and upset about me + having to deal with his Scizophrenia + all the debt and getting our house fixed. I am surprised he is not back in the mental hospital himself. It has been so hard on him and I wish I could just shut-up about myself. I am going to try not to talk to him so much about it. Oh no! That means I will tell you more. lol! RUN!

Strange thing, the hydrocodine I took today didn't make me nauseous, just the one from last night...I guess... but it didn't help my pain as well. Also, after I wrote the first post to you, we went to run some errands and my lip and left eye started swelling up like it did on vacation. O_O We were advised to go to the hospital this time. It was much worse. I think it was from switching to hydrocodine last night. We went to a walk-in client, it is faster, where they gave me a steroid shot. The swelling has gone down a lot, but I still look terrible. It will take awhile for it to work Michael said. They also gave me something stronger than Benedryl to take. I turned in the perscription and will pick up later. It is also suppose to help my rash. I pray that it does. This morning was a nightmare and I am worn out from it. I didn't get any work done today and we all will clean clothes soon. I will try to get to work tomorrow.

I am going to try my best not to take either one of them tonight. If there is neuropathic pain, maybe I will sleep through it. I have
a numbing gel I will use too before bed. I will see if the rash is better or goes away in the morning. That is when it is at it's worst usually. I'm glad you have something better in the way of a painkiller. I know it would not help me unfortuately.

Yes I loved Tootsie! Oh I bet the fic is a lot of fun. Since the chapters are short, I will check it out after I ever finish this one. lol!

Strangely enough writing to you helps me feel better and relax. I also like to put on my headphones and listen to my favorite comedians, Jeff Foxworthy and Bill Engval. They are hysterical! I also love to listen to music too. I haven't done the candle thing in a long time. Maybe I will try that, where I used to burn them has a bunch of DVD's on it. My house is so cluttered. I could put one close to my bed on my night stand. I might do that. Of course I will blow it out when I am done, not going to burn the house down I promise. lol!

[badly_knitted]

I hope what you've been given will stop the itching as well as stopping the swelling. Allergic reactions can be nasty.

I'm glad I can help a bit just by listening, and I hope the candles do some good too.

*careful hugs* Love, J xxx

[debmommy22]

Thanks!

I hope you are doing ok today.

The swelling is much better though my eye is still a bit swollen and I wish it would go down. It seems to have been the pain pills like Nancy and Michael thought. I stopped taking them last night and I woke up with no rash for the first time in weeks and I'm not itching. I am so thankful not to have the rash and relieved. I do feel like a truck ran me over from yesterday though. Now I guess we take the next steps which is checking out a pain clinic. Michael said they can give injections or patches that go straight into the blood stream so not as likely to cause a rash. My pain is back, not terrible, but I am afraid moving around a lot will make it worse so I am still going to have to have pain killers somehow? I left a message with Nancy to call me back today about a referal to a pain specialist/clinic. I hope she calls today.

I took whimpy Advil just now because it sometimes helps the pain a tiny bit. Are your medications still working well for you?

How is the cross-stich going and have you watched all your Stargate episodes? I don't know if it plays here anymore, it probably does, I have not kept up with many shows. I just got away from TV. a lot after Alex was born and then well just life and problems as you know. I used to love ER or well certain Seasons and cast members. The last seasons mostly when Dr. Carter was still with them. Once he left I stopped watching it. He was really good and so handsome to me. Anyway...blabbering again.

BTW. You do help a lot. I hope I don't drive you crazy. We need to talk about some fun stuff again. Naked hide and seek again! lol!

PS. I absolutely love that icon! I really should upload it. :D

Editing again: I meant to say I'm SO GLAD not to have the rash!!! I wrote it like it was no big deal, but was thinking about it this way. lol! I'm so silly I know. *rolls eyes again*

[badly_knitted]

I've made it to halfway through season 2 of Stargate SG-1! There are 10 seasons and 2 TV movies, so I have quite a way to go yet =)

NCIS is on in half an hour, so I'm getting myself settled to watch that!

Hope you get a referral to a pain clinic. It would be good if you could have pain meds some other way instead of pills. Like me, you take so many you must rattle! I'm managing to keep more or less on schedule with mine today. They do help, though they don't fix everything. At least I feel more positive these days.

*hugs* Love, J xxx

[debmommy22]

I'm glad you are enjoying your Stargate SG-1 shows. Wow! You have a lot left to go. That is always fun! I hope you enjoyed NCIS too. I still try to catch them on re-runs when I have time. I can't wait for the new ones in the fall. :D

Yeah I hope I get the referral soon too. It maybe a LONG wait. :( I feel like I am wearing sand paper against my bits....sorry to be graphic. Yes I am so tired of all the pills I take. Just sucks! Of course things could always be worse...I guess....lol!

I'm glad your pills are helping. I want you to be happy and healthy.
:D

[badly_knitted]

Healthy for me is unlikely, the best I can hope for is to have my problems partly under control, but that's better than I had before so that's good enough that I'm content.

Yes NCIS was great last night, I really enjoyed it. i hope to watch some more Stargate this afternoon while I stitch, so I have that to look forward to. the weather is better today too, at least it is at the moment. Rain is forecast for this afternoon, but right now the sun is shining and there's some blue sky, which makes me feel a bit more awake. Rainy, overcast weather makes me lethargic =(

[debmommy22]

Well I am glad you are at least better. Life can so suck with our problems. You have a very positive outlook like Michael does. I wonder if I could get a transfusion of positive outlook from you or Michael. lol!

I hope you enjoyed your shows and cross-stich today, and I am glad your weather was nice today. That always makes me feel better too. I hope it didn't decide to rain on you later. Sometimes I like rain at night when I sleep, but during the day I usually feel better with more sunshine coming through the windows.

[badly_knitted]

It's almost 7pm and still no rain though it has clouded over. Guess we got lucky!

I did enjoy my stitching and Stargate - 4 episodes =)

The last was he Fifth Race which is one of my favourite early eps, I always get a little misty eyed at that one.

I do try to stay positive, but it's not always easy. I'm not exactly an optimist, I just try to deal with the life I'm stuck with as best I can. It's better than the alternative!

[debmommy22]

I'm glad you try to stay positive. I'm not doing too well at that today.

My rash is back just when I thought we had it figured out. I am going to keep reducing the antidepressant and take my pain pill because I still can't function without them at all. The pain is unbearable. The pills make me depressed, but don't have a choice. If I still have the rash after being completely off the antidepressant then I will know it is the pain pills too...probably?...and by then I hope I will be referred to the pain clinic. If I still then have the rash...I will kill myself!...ok, no I won't, but I will have to start eliminating other drugs or see an allergist. I just don't know anymore? Maybe I am doing it to myself. Maybe it is just stress hives. I am not in a good place right now and I need to do something fun.

[badly_knitted]

Something is causing the rash, and it seems too extreme to be just stress induced, so hopefully it'll become clear soon which of your meds is causing it. This really has been going on too long. Doctors are supposed to make people better, not worse. I hope you get a referral to the clinic quickly. I wish I knew what to suggest. *hugs very carefully*

I hope you can find something fun to do or even to think about to take your mind off all your discomforts for a little while. So sorry you're hurting and feeling down.

Love, J xxx

[debmommy22]

Thank you! I just had dinner and I am watching a "House" show on my DVD set, but I would rather have NCIS. I am going to look into buying them off Amazon.com or ebay, whichever have the best prices.

Yes it has been going on a long time, and Michael thinks the same thing that it is not me causing the rash. I think he is probably right. I think the doctors are just clueless. The dumb doc at the walk-in clinic was of no help, just gave me the steroid shot and said to see an alergist to fiqure out which med was causing it. I have had allergies to pollens and sinus problems all my life, but never rashes unless it happened as a reaction to a drug, but when I stopped the drug, the antidote made it go away for good. This is more complicated, too many drugs in my system and I am under so much stress, I just have no idea.

I am going to make a list of fun things to do and think about so I won't go or can keep myself from going into a deep hole. I am praying more than I have in a long time. I feel like a bit of a hypocrite, but I know God loves me even though I have not talked to him enough these past years. I have to hold onto hope. I have to believe I can survive this, and it won't last forever. I will heal, it just may take more time than I like, and I need a lot of patience. I have never been good at having patience. I will still go to doctors and try to find answers, but try not to let myself get too depressed if they don't have all the answers, and also getting depressed researching and looking for support on the net. Seems to hurt me more than help a lot of times.

[badly_knitted]

I am thinking good thoughts at you, sending healing vibes and praying for all I'm worth! I'm certain that you will get through this, it's just a matter of getting there.

Hope you can find NCIS at a good price, I'll keep my fingers crossed! Love and hugs, J xxx

[debmommy22]

Thank you!
How are you doing? Have you been searching for crystals on ebay lately? I will have to register again because it has been so long since I have bought or sold anything on there. I don't remember my password or anything. I had a paypal account under my old email address. I guess that account will just hang out in cyberspace forever. lol! I have no idea how to get into it, if it is still there.

I need those healing vibes and the prayers. You are so sweet. Thank you. :) I'm glad I have a good friend like you and I want to be better so I can shut-up about all this. lol! I'm getting tired of hearing myself talk! o_o

love you!
Deb. ♥

[badly_knitted]

Ooooh, I'm exhausted! I went to collect my new glasses this morning - they have purple frames, very pretty! Then I had to pick up bread for mum, go to the other end of our main shopping street to get food for my rabbit, then all the way back to my favourite bakers for some sweet treats - the make delicious blackcurrant pies, mouthwatering gingerbread biscuits and the best macaroons in town. (In case you don't get those in America, they're flat, chewy coconut biscuit things with a slice of almond on the top).

Then I drove home to rest for a little while before a local school's summer carnival. Summer. Huh. I usually cycle there, it's not far and there's really nowhere to park, but I can't cycle while holding an umbrella. That's right, it was raining again. So I walked, with Collin who walks very fast and is hard to keep up with at the best of times, but I was hampered by wrestling with my umbrella in strong winds. At least we didn't have to queue when we got there!

There were a handful of stalls. some rides for the kids, and lots of ferrets from a ferret rescue place. Kids could pay to hold one or to take one for a walk on a leash. They're very cute. We battled round the stalls in the wind and rain, I bought 3 DVDs, a nice box to store some of my cross stitch threads in, and a cross stitch kit! Oh, and a nice zip up knitting bag full of knitting needles - that was a real bargain! There was a stall selling some Doctor Who action figures - sadly no Ood, I've been trying to get myself an Ood for a long time. (Don't ask me to explain what an Ood is, it's a Doctor Who alien and I can't describe it, lol!) Anyway, I found two Captain Jacks, so I bought them. They can entertain each other until I manage to get a Ianto!

Then, of course, we had to walk all the way back... My feet feel like they'll fall off any minute and I'm so tired! Still, I had fun, despite the bad weather.