farewell broken heart...
this is where we must part.
darn right, we're parting. so much for being upset. so much for being touchy. so much for hanging on someone else's every move. so much of being happy with other people (or just that one person) is being happy with yourself. i am, right now. i'm happy with who i am right now, how things are going, where i'm headed. don't wait and ask me the first week of april, but right now things are good. and that makes me happy, and my dealings with others ever so much more enjoyable.
not that i don't usually love you all...
looks like i'm only writing when there's a holiday. i won't bore you with the details of my chicago trip, but there were a few things i rediscovered:
1) i love my cousins. we have such a crazy family, and sometimes i forget how much fun we can have when we're all hanging out. even the little ones (on the vt side) or the old ones (on the vs side) are cool. i just belong to an amazing family. which is why this next part hurts so much...
2) i have a sick grandmother. i knew my grandma had been moved to a nursing home, but i didn't realize how sick she was and how distant she would be (she has alzheimer's). we hadn't seen her since last christmas, and walking in the lounge at rest haven i didn't even recognize her; goes without saying, she had no idea who i was. but then she'd have the same mannerisms, or roll her eyes at my dad, or come out with a full sentence among all the mumble that just brought my heart up into my throat and put the whole room in tears. i have a sick grandmother. i forget that. and it's extremely likely that this christmas was the last time i'll see her before her funeral. i have a sick grandmother. but, boy does she still fight...
3) don't go by appearances, those dutchies are a bunch of spitfires.
4) chicago is far away, and i'm liking planes less and less the more i fly. i think i may be stickin' to the east coast with schools!
mike and joan are here (ha, from my entries you'd think we see each other all the time) so we're eating - and drinking - very well this week. it's always fun to have them around, the goofballs. tomorrow is a trip to federal hill to watch my uncle mike buy out the italian deli. always a fun time.
no, the holiday eating has not ended yet in the vs house!
darn right, we're parting. so much for being upset. so much for being touchy. so much for hanging on someone else's every move. so much of being happy with other people (or just that one person) is being happy with yourself. i am, right now. i'm happy with who i am right now, how things are going, where i'm headed. don't wait and ask me the first week of april, but right now things are good. and that makes me happy, and my dealings with others ever so much more enjoyable.
not that i don't usually love you all...
looks like i'm only writing when there's a holiday. i won't bore you with the details of my chicago trip, but there were a few things i rediscovered:
1) i love my cousins. we have such a crazy family, and sometimes i forget how much fun we can have when we're all hanging out. even the little ones (on the vt side) or the old ones (on the vs side) are cool. i just belong to an amazing family. which is why this next part hurts so much...
2) i have a sick grandmother. i knew my grandma had been moved to a nursing home, but i didn't realize how sick she was and how distant she would be (she has alzheimer's). we hadn't seen her since last christmas, and walking in the lounge at rest haven i didn't even recognize her; goes without saying, she had no idea who i was. but then she'd have the same mannerisms, or roll her eyes at my dad, or come out with a full sentence among all the mumble that just brought my heart up into my throat and put the whole room in tears. i have a sick grandmother. i forget that. and it's extremely likely that this christmas was the last time i'll see her before her funeral. i have a sick grandmother. but, boy does she still fight...
3) don't go by appearances, those dutchies are a bunch of spitfires.
4) chicago is far away, and i'm liking planes less and less the more i fly. i think i may be stickin' to the east coast with schools!
mike and joan are here (ha, from my entries you'd think we see each other all the time) so we're eating - and drinking - very well this week. it's always fun to have them around, the goofballs. tomorrow is a trip to federal hill to watch my uncle mike buy out the italian deli. always a fun time.
no, the holiday eating has not ended yet in the vs house!