Lots of other good stuff here, including that no way does anyone lock you up unless you are a danger to yourself and/or others OR you want to be locked up. And as far as being a danger to yourself....... as long as you're in therapy, unless your therapist is convinced your demise is eminent, they are not going to drop a dime on you. Believe me, I can tell you all about the ins and outs of the s-word. ;P
One of the answers may indeed be drugs, which yes, only a psychiatrist (or your primary care doctor, depending) can prescribe. A lot of psychiatrists don't really do talk therapy, tho, so much as tracking symptoms. I very much think you could HUGELY benefit from talk therapy; I'll get back to that.
Here's a simple one -- o wait really it's not, these things being hard to manage -- um, here's a STRAIGHTFORWARD one...? Sleep. Food. Exercise. You have to do your best to get decent amounts of those three, it's ridiculous how much difference it makes.
Talk therapy, here's a little story. Once upon a time, say when I was in the 19-21 yr range, I had previously been in therapy and just found myself feeling really lousy. I ended up working with a tiny old former nurse, Mary O'Brien (she's the one who first clued me in to the sleep/food/exercise thing as well, and when I was feeling particularly awful she would query me intensely on these points and was almost always correct).
Wee Mary O'Brien kicked my ASS. And I was very down with it, I just wanted to feel better. We ended up having to unpack all this shit from my childhood in terms of how it related to perceptions and feelings and beliefs in the present (SO FUCKING WORTHWHILE). Cos then she could call me on it and be like "no, this is a disproportionate reaction (now), and it's cos this particular thing happened (in the past)." (SO FUCKING HELPFUL.) Not the cliché "so tell me about your mudda," just deeply, immediately, viscerally helpful. And I would just cry and cry and cry -- which is also a relief in its own way -- tho at least once so bitterly that, even drill sergeant that she was to a degree, she emphasized "you are a GOOD PERSON. A very good person. You did not bring this on yourself."
Has had many therapists since; 2 of 3 that I got through HCHP sucked, but hey! Have fired a couple -- it's a thing that one must do. It sucks, any form of rejection is never fun from any angle, but it's a-gotta be done. It's really weird that you might have to tell the most intimate fucking things to people that you end up saying "nahhhh not feelin' it" to, but..... yknow... Catholicism did get the Confession thing right. Therapy is all of the relief, all of the work, none of the guilt or punishment.
And make no mistake, it IS fucking work. Hard work. In no way do I think you're afraid of any such thing. The flavor of the work may be a little foreign or intimidating, but you can rock the shit out of this, dude. I say get with a therapist who you can work as a team with, make some plans with. Happy to say I have one such, to the degree that I told her very early on that I thought the thing we were going to have to watch out for the most was becoming friends -- which you cannot do during a therapeutic relationship, not fully, or there's a risk of there being too great a quotient of Hanging Out vs Working.
ah, quick clarification: no worries, any therapist you choose can work with a psychiatrist and/or your general doctor should drugs be a thing to try. I just feel, hey, have a relationship with someone that's about fixing shit, the underlying structure as it were, and not just about symptoms and drugs.
Fuck, am I just going to keep coming back here?! :)
I am working within the Riverside system, which I believe is an eastern MA thing. BUT, I would not be surprised if they had recommendations for something similar more convenient to you, if you wanted to scurry down that path. Big fan of the way the whole system works. Anyway, people with similar jobs tend to know each other and be able to recommend.
One of the answers may indeed be drugs, which yes, only a psychiatrist (or your primary care doctor, depending) can prescribe. A lot of psychiatrists don't really do talk therapy, tho, so much as tracking symptoms. I very much think you could HUGELY benefit from talk therapy; I'll get back to that.
Here's a simple one -- o wait really it's not, these things being hard to manage -- um, here's a STRAIGHTFORWARD one...? Sleep. Food. Exercise. You have to do your best to get decent amounts of those three, it's ridiculous how much difference it makes.
Talk therapy, here's a little story. Once upon a time, say when I was in the 19-21 yr range, I had previously been in therapy and just found myself feeling really lousy. I ended up working with a tiny old former nurse, Mary O'Brien (she's the one who first clued me in to the sleep/food/exercise thing as well, and when I was feeling particularly awful she would query me intensely on these points and was almost always correct).
Wee Mary O'Brien kicked my ASS. And I was very down with it, I just wanted to feel better. We ended up having to unpack all this shit from my childhood in terms of how it related to perceptions and feelings and beliefs in the present (SO FUCKING WORTHWHILE). Cos then she could call me on it and be like "no, this is a disproportionate reaction (now), and it's cos this particular thing happened (in the past)." (SO FUCKING HELPFUL.) Not the cliché "so tell me about your mudda," just deeply, immediately, viscerally helpful. And I would just cry and cry and cry -- which is also a relief in its own way -- tho at least once so bitterly that, even drill sergeant that she was to a degree, she emphasized "you are a GOOD PERSON. A very good person. You did not bring this on yourself."
Has had many therapists since; 2 of 3 that I got through HCHP sucked, but hey! Have fired a couple -- it's a thing that one must do. It sucks, any form of rejection is never fun from any angle, but it's a-gotta be done. It's really weird that you might have to tell the most intimate fucking things to people that you end up saying "nahhhh not feelin' it" to, but..... yknow... Catholicism did get the Confession thing right. Therapy is all of the relief, all of the work, none of the guilt or punishment.
And make no mistake, it IS fucking work. Hard work. In no way do I think you're afraid of any such thing. The flavor of the work may be a little foreign or intimidating, but you can rock the shit out of this, dude. I say get with a therapist who you can work as a team with, make some plans with. Happy to say I have one such, to the degree that I told her very early on that I thought the thing we were going to have to watch out for the most was becoming friends -- which you cannot do during a therapeutic relationship, not fully, or there's a risk of there being too great a quotient of Hanging Out vs Working.
You can do this. Be a fucking warrior. <3
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I am working within the Riverside system, which I believe is an eastern MA thing. BUT, I would not be surprised if they had recommendations for something similar more convenient to you, if you wanted to scurry down that path. Big fan of the way the whole system works. Anyway, people with similar jobs tend to know each other and be able to recommend.
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