Dad
I've not spoken my dad since Christmas. It still bothers me that he hasn't talked to me on the phone. Part of that is because he find's it hard to call me Freda now. I don't think he is anti my transition. Its just a case of him realising his usual way of dealing with problems as jokes wont work this time. Its a bit more real. He communicates through my mum. Mum will tell me "dad hopes you are ok" - "dad asks how work is" but If l ask to talk to him the answer is usually that he is busy.
I used to really identify with Bobby from King of the Hill. Before dad retired he was a salesman for Calor Gas. He sold propane and propane accessories. I used to go to work with him sometimes. I think he sensed l was feminine or not quite the lad he wanted me to be. I would sometimes challenge his opinions on politics and he would say "you wont get far having those views" or "you have too much to say", if l dared question his opinions on race relations or sexual politics etc. He was probably right in a way. Maybe he was trying to protect me from being singled out. Most of the time we laughed these things off but I'd have the real conversation with my mum or sister later and they would nod and share a knowing glance.
Its hard not to feel like I've let him down. I wonder what Bobby from King of the Hill would be doing now?
I used to really identify with Bobby from King of the Hill. Before dad retired he was a salesman for Calor Gas. He sold propane and propane accessories. I used to go to work with him sometimes. I think he sensed l was feminine or not quite the lad he wanted me to be. I would sometimes challenge his opinions on politics and he would say "you wont get far having those views" or "you have too much to say", if l dared question his opinions on race relations or sexual politics etc. He was probably right in a way. Maybe he was trying to protect me from being singled out. Most of the time we laughed these things off but I'd have the real conversation with my mum or sister later and they would nod and share a knowing glance.
Its hard not to feel like I've let him down. I wonder what Bobby from King of the Hill would be doing now?