I don't need a good shrink
Ugh. Maybe going back to work today was A Bad Idea. By about 10 or 11, I was so drained and exhausted I was ready to call it a day and come home, crawl back into bed. I wasn't even doing anything, just taking it easy and scanning (that's about all I was physically capable of I swear it).
(I personally think they were quarantining me in that little post room but oh well, whatever! LOL)
Plus, everyone kept telling me how shit I looked... yeah, I was quite literally sheet white. I also go told that my hair looked nice and that I'd lost way too much weight in one week (which is very true, I do agree)
Spent most of the morning on the phone to/texting lots of Supernatural SQUEE with charlies_dragon
Discovered lunch was officially A Bad Idea about half hour after eating it when it... uh... revisited. And apparently I went slightly grey.
Again, almost came home but really can't afford another day off this week.
Kept on scanning in the afternoon - fuelled by lucozade, fresh air, sunshine and very peculiar daydreams.
Got told around 3ish that it seemed like I'd perked up... think that was probably due to being on the phone to Chelbean (once again - I swear that girl has a built-in 'the llama is sad therefore you must ring her' detector) who had the fab news that she's got next weekend off work and is coming up to see me
*beams happily*
Day took a total nose dive when I got home though.
Talk about bye-bye improved mood.
Apparently I'm pathetic.
No, I actually don't care if it was meant or not... it still fucking hurt. A lot.
So what if a TV show makes me happy?
Fandom's my happy place - always has been and always will be.
And yeah, my favourite tv show coming back makes me happy.
If a little bit of happiness when I'm having a really fucking shitty time of things makes me pathetic, then so fucking be it!
God isn't it nice to know what people - sorry, i mean those you thought were your friends - really think of you... yeah, there's a reason I don't 'do' friendship - it's never real.
Right now though... I'm cold (there's a surprise!), I kind of want to cry, I really want a hug and I'm totally craving pizza (but probably shouldn't spend pennies on it but... well... really need it right now)
(I personally think they were quarantining me in that little post room but oh well, whatever! LOL)
Plus, everyone kept telling me how shit I looked... yeah, I was quite literally sheet white. I also go told that my hair looked nice and that I'd lost way too much weight in one week (which is very true, I do agree)
Spent most of the morning on the phone to/texting lots of Supernatural SQUEE with charlies_dragon
Discovered lunch was officially A Bad Idea about half hour after eating it when it... uh... revisited. And apparently I went slightly grey.
Again, almost came home but really can't afford another day off this week.
Kept on scanning in the afternoon - fuelled by lucozade, fresh air, sunshine and very peculiar daydreams.
Got told around 3ish that it seemed like I'd perked up... think that was probably due to being on the phone to Chelbean (once again - I swear that girl has a built-in 'the llama is sad therefore you must ring her' detector) who had the fab news that she's got next weekend off work and is coming up to see me
*beams happily*
Day took a total nose dive when I got home though.
Talk about bye-bye improved mood.
Apparently I'm pathetic.
No, I actually don't care if it was meant or not... it still fucking hurt. A lot.
So what if a TV show makes me happy?
Fandom's my happy place - always has been and always will be.
And yeah, my favourite tv show coming back makes me happy.
If a little bit of happiness when I'm having a really fucking shitty time of things makes me pathetic, then so fucking be it!
God isn't it nice to know what people - sorry, i mean those you thought were your friends - really think of you... yeah, there's a reason I don't 'do' friendship - it's never real.
Right now though... I'm cold (there's a surprise!), I kind of want to cry, I really want a hug and I'm totally craving pizza (but probably shouldn't spend pennies on it but... well... really need it right now)