Stranger and Stranger
It seems to me to be a strange time to be me. In many ways I feel like I am not living my life but viewing other peoples. I see pain and joy, strength and weakness, but most of all I see people living with no faith in them selves. Yeah I used the F word. I feel like it is something we as a culture are missing. NOT the god and damnation thing but the ability to believe in what you can't see, Like yourselves. Now I know what you are thinking... I can see myself...... but that is just your body. You are more than flesh. Doubt in ones self is one of the biggest problem today. Do you know that there are just as many types of antidepressant drugs as there are cold medicines. Scary isn't it. Faith is a invisible strength that people have to leap beyond what they see, or more to what I am talking about. What they can't see in themselves. Confidence, Happiness, Joy, Courage, and inner peace. I am still working on most of these things myself, but I would just like to point out if everyone had a little faith ( and I am not talking about walking on water or the "Monstrous Ego's" that walk around.) in themselves I don't think there would be as much depression, lonely people, or disillusioned corpses walking around Sacramento. Not that I am bitter, I save that for holidays. The faith I am talking about is the courage to try,,, possibly fail but still try again. To follow your heart and to make choices. I am finding more that people are more scare of making the wrong choice than living with a mistake. Fear, doubt, paranoia and hate "these lead to the Darkside". ( Yes I am a Nerd!!) Making a mistake is totally human, It is what happens after that makes you who you are. If you walk around scared to do anything. You do nothing but hurt yourself, and lead a very boring life. When I think of some of the most exciting times of my life, If I really thought through what I was about to do. I would have probably not done it. Life is very short, enjoy what you got. Think but live too. There is something worse than making a mistake...... Living with regret.